Pain || Tomura Shigaraki x Reader

seventeen

"Y/N, i am so sorry about everything." your mother's sweet caring voice rang through your mind, "i have so much to explain. one, i'm not dead... well i am, but i still exist somewhere - the afterlife." she explained one point as you stared off into the distance, tears already streaming down your cheeks as time froze, "two, i am so sorry you had to go through all of this pain - you are not what they say you are, i had to posses you to keep you alive." her voice went into a whisper as she added, "they are trying to mutate you, Y/N."

no... this can't be real... you thought, shaking your head as nothing moved - everything just frozen still as if a picture was taken.

"i'm sorry, Yuii will explain better... stay safe."

nothing.

darkness and pain, loneliness and fear. you were suddenly this young five year old screaming for your mom to come scare the demons away out of your closet. except this time, the demons were in front of you - two - one you loved but couldn't understand and the other that wanted to kill the ones you loved. you stared as Shigaraki stood there, an expressionless face as he looked at you and mouthed a few words of goodbye.

of true goodbye.

"i love you, Y/N." he smiled slightly before your brother pointed the gun at Shigaraki's head and pulled the trigger.

"good night, bitch." he grinned as the bullet made impact and the one person you felt like you loved fell to the floor, red blooming out of his head.

time slowed as you screamed a no, your wires seeping out of your arms and attacking the shackles that bound your wrists to the unforgiving wall. they broke and without thinking you shot the wires into your brothers back, spreading them through his body as he screamed. you screamed too, cursing your brother, wishing him an amazing time in hell as you tried again and again to end his life. his screams turned into laughter and from laughter into silence as he hung in the air smirking at you - alive. you stopped knowing that for some reason he wasn't dying and fell to your knees, the wires still holding your brother hostage in the air. everything was silent apart from your sobs that filled the room and echoed back into your ears, drowning your smallest self out. the darkness seemed ten times darker and the light ten times lighter as you slowly stopped crying and looked at your brother. then you swore as you threw him into the floor, retreated your wires and crawled to Shigaraki who lay there, the blood on his left temple trickling down his cheek. you ran a hand through his hair and placed your forehead on his, tears dripping down your face. no one was there to save you but you didn't mind as you positioned a wire directly above your head. No one was there to help anyone.

Just as you were about to end your life, someone screamed a no. your head snapped round and you saw the familiar young girl known as Yuii standing in front of the league. her green eyes were sparkling with tears as she looked at her dad, but she just took a deep breath and walked over to you, Dabi staring at the three of you with a dead look in his eyes.

"no, Y/N... don't." her mouth opened again as if she wanted to add something but she refrained and knelt next to you.

"h-he's dying..." you whispered, looking at him, "right before i could tell him i loved him. 

"it's okay..." she placed a hand on yours and directed your gaze to her green orbs. you sighed and looked away, staring at your brother that was slumped against the wall, grinning.

"such a great family reunion." he spoke with a horrible tone and laughed. his laugh didn't last long. you looked as Yuii was in front of him within a second, grabbing him by his shirt.

"i dare you to hurt them again." she said, a sharp tinge to it as she glared at him.

"gladly... why don't i hurt you, pretty girl."

"oh call me pretty girl again too, test me."

you couldn't help but watch what happened next. he reached into her pocket and took out a knife - that you didn't notice was there - and stabbed her in the stomach. or at least he tried, she was behind him, some blood on her arm, but otherwise okay. next thing you knew, she wrapped her legs around his neck and her nails turned to claws, ripping into his eyes. she opened her mouth to reveal her sharp teeth and moved her leg, chomping on his throat as he screamed. he kept thrashing her around, trying to get a hand on her but every touch he missed. every movement he made, she made one greater. she jumped off him and left his bloody body on the floor, hardly breathing. tears streamed down her cheeks as she wiped her mouth turning to her father and you.

"don't hurt my family again." she whispered before she placed a hand on Shigaraki's temple, wiping the blood. the same weird thing happened that happened with your hand. once she removed her hand, his wound was gone and she held a single bullet in her palm. your eyes widened as you held your breath, waiting to see if he was alive or not. he didn't die... but he could.

you were still superstitious to Yuii's abilities.

Yuii walked off to Dabi and Toga, leaving you slightly alone as you sat, staring at Shigaraki who lay in your arms. you felt a tear flow down your cheeks as you slowly wanted to give up. you stroked his hair and felt something brush your hand. 

"Y/N?"