{Set in Sam's apartment}
Sam sighed as sun filled his bedroom. Another sunrise. Sam was seeing so many of them lately they stopped being so special a long time ago. Hugging his knees tighter to his chest, Sam rested his chin on top of them, eyes drooping but refusing to shut completely. He could almost feel the grey bags forming under his tired blue eyes as he swung his skinny legs over the side of his bed, and walked out of his bedroom. His legs felt like jelly underneath his body, barely enough strength in them to hold him up. After he wobbled on his shaky legs to the bathroom, he slammed his hands onto the sink to try and hold himself up. His head dropped to his chest, the lack of sleep soaring through his bloodstream. Sam hadn't got a wink of sleep in 3 days. Sounds ridiculous, but it was true. He didn't know what happened. Whenever his head hit the pillow, his eyes refused to close, his mind refused to stop thinking. Everything that could possibly stop a person from sleeping was ambushing Sam every time his eyes fluttered shut. And now here he was, barley enough strength in him to stand, gripping his bathroom sink for support. Reluctantly, he lifted his heavy head of his chest to look at himself in the mirror. He gasped at what he saw, his heart plummeting and his stomach dropping along with it. His skin was ghostly pale, all colour gone along with his motivation. His eyes were bright red from the strain of keeping them open for so long, accompanied with grey bags underneath. If he had the energy to splash water on his face he would've, but Sam just wanted to sit down. He walked, on slightly stronger legs, to the kitchen where he poured himself a cup of coffee in a feeble attempt to wake himself up a little. He then collapsed onto the sofa, turning the TV on and sipping his coffee. He put a series on Netflix, trying his hardest to relax and get comfortable, hoping it would help him drift off to sleep. He grabbed a blanket and wrapped it around his shoulders, propping himself up with a couple of cushions and placing his now empty coffee cup on the floor. He snuggled up under the blanket, nuzzling his face into the soft fabric of the pillow, but it was no use. After half an hour, Sam's eyes were still wide open. He huffed, sitting up and chucking the blanket of him, bringing his knees to his chest and focusing on the television instead. Suddenly, the door to his apartment opened. Sam didn't even have the energy to turn his head to check who it was, hoping that if it was a robber they'd knock him out so he could finally get some rest (well..... I mean I don't know why I wrote that). "Just me," Sam heard. His lips curled into a slight smile at the sound of his best friend. He heard Colby putting a bag onto the counter and then he continued to talk. "I just bought over that stuff for the video. What ya doing?"
Sam managed a weak shrug, not wanting to speak, knowing his voice would sound croaky and horrid. He heard the padding footsteps of Colby walking around to where Sam was sat. The blonde boy trained his eyes to the floor, in hope that Colby wouldn't see his sleep deprived face. The sofa dipped beside him, and Sam realised Colby was sitting next to him. Close. "You ok?" Colby asked, taking his phone out his pocket and flicking through Instagram. Sam sighed when realised his best friend didn't seem to be concerned. Maybe if Sam managed to convince him everything was fine, Colby would leave before seeing his red eyes and ghostly skin. Sam hummed in response, a hand coming up to rub at his iterated eyes when they began to sting.
"You sure?" Colby continued, swiping onto the camera to take a quick photo for his story. Sam watched out of the corner of his eye as he took a quick selfie and typed something out about metalife. "I'm fine, Colby," Sam assures, his voice coming out as a whisper which made him stop talking pretty soon. He saw Colby raise his eyebrows, switching onto Twitter. "If you say so," Colby sighed, beginning to type out a tweet. "Oh yeah dude, Kevin asked us out tonight. Some party or something?" Colby informed Sam. Sam felt like crying. The thought of leaving the sofa made him feel sick, let alone dancing and drinking with a bunch of people after having no sleep for 3 days. "Hmmm, maybe," Sam replied. Colby turned his head to look at the blonde boy, eyes dancing over his small body. Sam squirmed under his glance, hoping and praying he wouldn't pick up on anything. "Look at me," Colby demanded, but his voice was gentle. Sam refused, picking up his phone instead and clicking on snapchat. He cringed when the camera showed his face, swiping off it quickly and instead flicking through peoples stories.
"Sam..." Colby sighed, nudging his friend with his shoulder.
"Colby," Sam retaliated, the sarcasm dripping from his words and instantly rooting a feeling of guilt into Sam's heart.
"Please look at me," colby tried again, reaching out for Sam's phone, taking it slowly from his grasp. Sam made no attempt to stop him, just watching his last attempt of a cover up slipping from his fingers. He was shocked, to say the least, when Colby's gentle hand pressed to the side of his face, slowly turning his head towards the brunette. Sam reluctantly met Colby's gaze, watching the worry wash across his best friends face.
"Sam..." Colby repeated, his hand still on Sam's cheek.
Sam looked down, fiddling with his fingers, internally groaning when Colby removed his hand.
"How long has it been since you slept?" Colby asked, anxiousness evident in his wavering voice. Sam shrugged, tears prickling in his eyes which surprised him.
"Talk to me, Sam," Colby begged, taking one of Sam's hands in both of his. Sam hesitantly met Colbys gaze, calming down when Colby squeezed the blondes small hand. "Bout 3 days ago..." Sam trailed off, sniffing to try and hold back his tears.
"Why didn't you say anything?" Colby asked, shuffling closer to the fragile blonde.
"It's stupid, that's why," Sam sniffed, hand coming up to rub his sore eyes.
"It's not stupid, Sam," Colby reassured, gently tracing circles on the back of Sam's hand. "Listen, we won't go out tonight, ok? I'll stay here with you, and I'll make sure you get some sleep, how does that sound?" Colby decided, glancing up at his poor friend. Sam nodded, leaning forward slightly to colby and hugging him tightly, taking the brunette by surprise. Sam buried his head in Colby's shoulder, the comforting smell of his best friend already making his eyes droop. "How about you have a bath, then you can sleep?" Colby asked, smiling when Sam nodded his head. The blonde reluctantly pulled back from his best friend, standing up on his shaky legs, but Colby had other ideas. "No, you stay here, I'll run it," Colby decided, pulling Sam back onto the sofa and standing up himself. Colby disappeared into the bathroom, leaving Sam alone to think. He was honestly so lucky to have Colby. Really, really lucky.
Sam laid in the bath, his body relaxing as the warm water worked wonders. Colby had used bubbles, and Sam's hand was slowly drifting through the water and popping them. After about 25 minutes of just laying there, Sam washed his greasy blonde locks and then got out, shivering as he wrapped himself in a towel. (shoot Sam doesn't have a bath. Wait yes he does cos he filled it with noodles). Sam grabbed his jogging bottoms and hoodie colby had left on the sink and put them on as quickly as he could. He hung his towel up and left the bathroom. Colby was sat on the sofa, looking through his phone, but he shut it off as soon as he heard Sam. He looked up at the blonde boy, smiling when he took in his damp, messy hair and over - sized hoodie. The brunette opened his arm, grinning as Sam sat down into it. The blonde rested his head on colby's chest, his entire body relaxing and leaning against the brunette. Colby ran his hand up and down Sam's arm, grabbing the TV remote. "What do you wanna watch?" Colby asked, whilst flicking through Netflix.
"Hmmmm, Zoo," Sam decided. (If you haven't watched zoo, then what the FRICK you doing it's SO GOOD). Colby nodded, putting on Sam's chosen program and relaxing. Sam shifted to get more comfortable, one hand resting over Colby's stomach as he cuddled into his side. Sam couldn't describe the peace that engulfed him in that moment. Listening to the soothing beat of his best friends heartbeat and the heat that radiated off the brunette and warmed his heart. For once in a long time, Sam felt his eyes dropping, and his body let them shut. Colby noticed this, and smiled to himself, bringing a hand up to sift through sam's damp blonde locks. Sam hummed contently, grasping a handful of Colby's shirt and inhaling deeply. "Colbs?" Sam spoke suddenly. His voice was quiet and tiredness was evident in his words. "Yep," colby smiled.
"Thanks," Sam breathed. Colby grinned to himself, pecking sam's head and tapping the blonde boys arm as his smile grew. Sam snuggled his cheek further into Colby, feeling the soothing rise and fall of his best friends chest. With the TV whirring in the background, and colby's breathing being the only other sound the blonde could hear, he fully relaxed and let sleep engulf him.
Colby moved his head to look at Sam after he heard his breathing even out. The blonde was fast asleep, much to Colby's relief. Smiling to himself, Colby scanned Sam's face, taking in the pure beauty of it as he slept. A hand came up to cup the smaller boys cheek, thumb caressing his cheekbone. He then moved to wipe the bangs out of Sam's face, eyes dancing fondly over the blondes features. God, he was so precious. Colby sighed happily, hugging the blonde tightly to his own chest, smiling when Sam snuggled into his shoulder. The heat radiating off the smaller warmed Colby immensely, and he too let sleep engulf him.
I'm alive, sorry for not updating for song long :(
But, omg the boys launched metalife!! I'm so proud of them :))
Unfortunately, I'm not allowed to join but that's ok, I'm just happy that they're happy, and they're helping so many people!!
And can we just talk about Aaron for a sec!! He's so brave talking about what happened and I just wanna send him all the love and hugs in the world! We love you bubba 🖤
- bryony :))
