Forever and Always

Chapter 55 - A Lonely Weekend

Baby, Farlan is on his plane. I have some errands to run, but I'll be free whenever you're free. I hate how we left things. I read the incoming text with a sigh of relief, upset that I hadn't spoken to him in more than twenty four hours. I had put Poppy to bed an hour later than she was used to, but had the rest of the evening to myself, given that she stayed asleep.

Me too. Was all I could find the strength to reply with.

I promised I would make it up to you. I love you so much.

There's not really any way you can make that up. it's not a you thing. its a me thing.

Eren. Trust me. Please.

I do.

It certainly doesn't sound like you do.

Well you wouldn't know what that sounds like if you've been avoiding calling me all weekend. it's almost Sunday.

In all fairness, I've been trying to give you your space. Besides, you're the one that likes to call me.

I sighed. He had a point. Why do you have to be so fucking perfect all the time?

I don't know. Guess it just comes naturally. But, if anybody's the saint here, it's you.

I just bitched you out about the weather. I dont think so

The next thing I knew, my phone was ringing. I picked it up and held it to my ear. "Hello?"

"Eren, you need to hear me say it, apparently. You haven't heard me tell you how much I love you recently, have you? You also haven't heard a legitimate apology from me in a long ass time. I mean sure, I say I'm sorry every once in a while but I really need you to hear this. I am so much more than sorry, Eren. I have put you through so much during the last month that its it's ridiculous you're still here. I am so grateful for you. You're my rock. And I know you don't like it when I talk about this, but you're the reason I'm still alive. When I was sent to rehab, I had every intention of killing myself as soon as I was back in New York. You saved me, Eren. In more ways than one. I love you more than anything."

I didn't know what to say. A second ago I was mad at him and myself for being mad at him. Now, I was trying to think of ways to backtrack a little so I didn't hate myself for it later. "Jeez. I-" I muttered, cutting myself off before I had the chance to formulate a coherent thought. I let my feelings seep through a little bit, letting my guard down and telling him what was on my mind, but all that came out was a quiet, "I love you."

Levi let out a sigh before continuing. "More than anything. You're my world, Eren. I hope that's painfully obvious to you. I never could have imagined this life for myself before I met you. And I was never good with words until I met you. Now it just kinda pours out of me," he chuckled dryly. "I have so much to say to you. So many years I want to spend with you. The rest of our lives. And then whatever comes next." I could hear his breath hitch on the other side of the call and I wanted nothing more than to wrap my arms around him and hold onto him.

"Me, too, Levi. I'm sorry I've been so hard on you."

"I deserve it, Eren. I deserve everything you have to throw at me. And I promise on my life that I will make it up to you. Whatever you need me to do, I'll be there."

"Thanks, Levi. That means a lot to me. God, I wish you were here with me. You would make it so much easier."
"I know. I'm sorry You have to do this all by yourself right now. I'll be here for Thanksgiving, though. I promise."

"Okay," I sighed, wondering how I had gotten so lucky. We continued talking doe several hours while he talked away all of my insecurities and stress. We were back to being two peas in a pod by the time I fell asleep on the phone with him, listening to him humming softly into the microphone of his earbuds.

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