Hi.
It's Christmas Day.
I got a lot of cool presents.
Some I would love to show you guys.
You guys would love them.
It's been rough guys.
I'm not gonna lie.
It's been super rough.
I miss you guys so much.
I want more time with you guys.
That's what I put on my Christmas list.
But I never told anyone.
I would do ABSOLUTELY ANYTHING to hear your voices again.
To hear you laugh.
To hear you sing.
To hear you're soft voices.
The little things that I took for granted.
The things I should've appreciated more.
Your hugs.
Your advice.
Your life lessons.
You laugh.
You smile.
Your happiness.
Your eyes.
Your positivity.
Your love for your family and friends.
I missed you guys this Christmas.
It was different without you guys.
I was hurting the whole time.
I'm in bed now just so I can cry.
I hate showing emotions around anyone anymore.
They flip their shit.
I got a soft blanket you would love, nanny.
I can hear you now saying you want it.
I would give it to you, you know I would.
And papaw I got this super cool safe that you would love to check out.
It's really cool.
I wish you guys were here to celebrate with us.
Dad got a tool box full of tools, papaw.
He loves it.
I know he misses you guys too.
Especially around the holidays.
Nanny, I still have our matching rings.
I'll never lose them.
I also have your pillow I sleep with every night.
I can't sleep without it.
Papaw, I still have your pocket knife.
I'm not allowed to have it in my room tho.
I made some fucked up choices and mom and dad took them all.
But I'm okay.
I love you guys so much.
Not a day goes by that I don't think about you two.
I hope you guys are living it up, up there.
I'll see you guys soon.
