I seen him again.
I usually don't seen him two times within this span of time.
He usually torments me then shows himself here and there.
He screamed at me.
Told me to kill myself.
Told me that I'm nothing.
That no one cares.
He said that's why I ended up alone tonight.
That no one has time for me.
That there was no reason to be here anymore.
That she doesn't give two fucks about me.
He's very blunt obviously.
He knows how to get in my head and make me believe that.
And it's working.
It's really working.
Do I even have a reason to live?
Does she care?
Does anyone care?
Should I kill myself?
I literally just told myself I can't.
But he's making me believe I can.
He's making me believe I should.
I don't want to believe him.
But he has his ways.
Should I tho?
Should I take it into consideration?
What do I do?
I can't let him win.
But I also can't win for losing anymore.
I'm trying to protect everyone but myself.
I will die for her.
For them.
And if that's what it takes.
So be it.
