Well....
I'm back to where I started.
Suicidal.
Depressed.
Fucked up in the head.
And mad at everyone and everything.
My anxiety is back and stronger than ever.
The thoughts? Yep they're back too.
I want nothing to do with anyone.
I'm always mad as hell.
Always lashing out at someone.
Always aggravated at someone.
Always wanting to cuss them out.
For what reason? Idk.
Sometimes there's a reason.
Other times...there's not.
I just don't get it.
I'm taking my medicine.
Sorta.
I'm seeing a psychiatrist.
I'm doing everything in my power to help myself.
What do I do?
Cause right now something just ain't cutting it.
I just don't give a fuck anymore.
Im going behind everyone's back all the time.
I'm hiding so much shit...I'd probably get disowned if they found out.
But that's enough said about that.
I'm back to exactly where I started.
And what do I do?
I screw up everything.
Everything I had going for me...
I screwed it up.
