Why does it have to be you that I fall in love with?
Why do I fall for you even though I can't tell you how I feel?
Why do my feelings proceed to grow for you knowing that I can never have you?
Why do I do this to myself?
Why does it have to be you that I adore?
Why do you have to be the one to break my heart yet put it back together again only for it to be broken again?
Why does it seem like there's no one else that I want but you?
I fell for you.
I loved you.
I love you.
But I can't tell you.
And I definitely can't have you.
You've hurt me.
You've broken me down.
Little by little I kinda wish you never came into my life.
But then there are times where I am so happy you're here.
You broke my heart so many times that there is no fixing it.
You're the reason I can't be happy.
You're the reason I can't be myself.
You're the reason why I hate myself.
You're the reason I went days without eating because you always had something to say about my weight, even if it was a joke.
You're the reason I didn't get out of bed for days.
You're the reason I smile.
The reason I laugh.
But also the reason I want to kill myself.
I hope you're happy tho.
I hope life gives you the best circumstances.
I hope you have a wonderful family and future.
But...just know you changed me.
