Numb.
What's does that mean?
Well....
It means "deprive of feeling or responsiveness"
You don't feel anything.
You don't sad.
You don't feel happy.
You don't feel pain.
You don't feel joy.
Or emotions.
Or any feeling of that matter.
You are numb.
Stuck.
At a loss.
A loss of words.
A loss of feeling.
A loss of expression.
Everything you've ever felt is stuck within you and you have no feeling.
You don't feel mad at the ones who hurt you.
You don't feel pity for the ones like you.
You don't appreciation for the ones who have tried to help.
You don't feel happy when something good happens to you or your loved ones.
You don't feel sad for the ones who are hurting.
You don't feel...anything.
Nothing.
You can't cry.
You can't get mad.
You can't cover up numbness with a fake smile.
You don't even feel like getting out of bed.
You don't feel like eating.
You don't feel like associating with others.
You don't feel like talking about it.
And most of all you don't feel like you are living.
You are floating.
You are accepting the fact that you are just here.
Going with the flow.
Going with whatever is thrown your way.
Not feeling anything about the things and obstacles that are thrown at you.
And when someone asks if you're okay, all you can say is "yeah! I'm fine!".
Because you don't have it within you to explain something you can't feel.
I'm numb....
Completely numb.
