A Lousy Geek

Chapter 51

Chapter 51

The love that we had was the most precious thing that happened to me. I'll forever treasure the love that we share together. I'll be forever grateful that once in my life, I was loved by Drice Zimon Montealba.

The only man that proves how love can conquer all. And the only man that shows how great love can be.

Our love story isn't perfect. We started being enemies. I used to hate him. I used to get iritated by him.

But the things that I hate him doing were the things that made me fall inlove.

Siya yung rason kung bakit ako nagtiwala ulit. Siya yung dahilan kung bakit natutunan kong magmahal ulit.

And maybe it isn't a love story at all. It is just a chapter that full of lessons but will end up unfinished.

Because the two of us doesn't share the same book. We're just extras in our stories. Hindi kami ang bida.

And what most painful is that... Maybe our story is meant to end up tragically.

Matapos ng pag-uusap namin ay hindi na ulit kami nagkita. Lumabas ako ng hospital at hindi na ulit sya dinalaw. And now, it's been two years but it feels like it's just yesterday.

The pain is still here. And my love for him stays.

"Malalim na naman ang iniisip mo."

Napalingon ako ng may biglang nagsalita sa tabi ko. I blinked when I recognize who it was.

Hindi ko alam na may kasama na pala ako dito kanina pa.

"Papa." I called him.

This is one of those days when my family visits me.

"Kamusta ka na?"

Natigilan ako sa tanong na yun ni Papa. I mean, he doesn't always asks me that.

Now I wonder, ganun na ba talaga ako kahalata na maging ibang tao ay napapansin na kung anong nararamdaman ko?

Two years ago I promised myself to bring back the old me. The cold, distant and blunt Avi. Because that's what it should be.

And I think that it must be better if I stayed that way. Walang mapapalapit sa akin, walang masasaktan.

"I'm fine." I smiled.

Bumuntong hininga sya bago tumingin sa kawalan.

Tanaw mula dito ang mga puno at dagat di kalayuan. It is a good place to relax and heal. And this really helps me to cope up.

Pero hindi pa rin noon nabubura yung tindi ng sakit na nararanasan ko.

I'm still aching..

I'm still aching for the love the we had but will never ever have again.

"I'm sorry anak."

Tumugil ang titig ko kay Papa. At some point nakaramdam ako ng kirot sa puso ko.

"I'm sorry If I failed as a father. I'm sorry kung kinailangan mong pagdaanan lahat ng sakit na ito. You don't deserve it. I am the one to blame."

"P-Papa..."

"Mas pinili kong itago ka para maprotektahan ka sa pamilya ko. Natatakot ako na kapag nalaman nila, masaktan ka, not knowing that I am the one who's hurting you. I'm sorry for being selfish. Kung hindi sana ganoon ang naging desisyon ko hindi ka sana pa nasaktan."

"Papa, that was a long time ago. Napatawad na kita."

Lumingon sa akin si Papa at kita ko ang pamumuo ng luha sa mata nya. Nahirapan akong lumunok dahil sa bara sa lalamunan ko.