Lullaby

Chapter 21 - Lust

 He traced his fingers along each indent of the many scars that overwhelmed my skin, with each kiss he planted he mouthed the word ‘beautiful’ under his breathe, a compliment I did not adore.

“Leo…” I moaned

“You really are beautiful my sweet” tears threatened to sting my eyes but I bit them back, but he continued to kiss my ever numbed skin

“Don’t…” I whispered, attempting to protest but instead I felt him scoop me up from behind before lowering me gently onto the bed, moments later I felt him crawl over me… his beautiful face visible in the moonlight

“As much as you may not like them, even go as far as to hate them… they are a part of you… and since they are a part of you… I find them beautiful… as I find you beautiful…” tears once more began to sting my eyes but I somehow muscled up the strength to hold them back

“Leo… they look disgusting…” I shunned my gaze away from him but he just turned it right back

“No… they don’t… not to me… not ever” I felt my cheeks flush and my heart sting, I didn’t deserve such warmth from him

“Leo, don’t waste your compliments and flattery on me… I’m not worth it” he tensed, his whole body hardened as I made that statement

“Jennifer Jones! If you ever say that again then I’m afraid I shall have to do something drastic!” a small chuckle escaped my lips as he scolded me “Finally she laughs…” he mouthed under his breathe

“Yes I suppose I did, but in all seriousness… I look terrible!”

“Oh! Now you’ve asked for it!” he sat up and slid his hands down to my ribs, stared me directly in the eyes “I dare you to say that again”

“I.Look.Terrible!” I over exaggerated the words to add effect but he stuck his tongue out at me in a teasing yet mocking way and began poking, prodding and rubbing… the damn fool was tickling me!

“Leo…No…. Leo… Stop!” I managed to say in between my hysterics, tossing and turning

“Then swear to me you won’t down yourself anymore!”

“I…Can’t”

“Then I shall never stop! Ha ha!” he mocked as he watched me squirm and gasp for breathe

“STOP!” I screamed “Fine... FINE!” and so keeping his words he stopped, leaving me with aching ribs and short of breathe, I rubbed my ribs… ouch!

“Jen, I hate that you can call yourself ugly… it truly saddens me… if… if you could just see yourself through my eyes… then maybe you would understand” I reached out and cupped his face with my palms

“Leo… I’m counting my blessings here… you’re the only one precides my father that has seen my scars… I was afraid to show you in case you were grossed out or something… but you didn’t… so I’m glad…”

“Jen I…” he was definitely surprised, but with the moonlight shining perfectly on his features I could see the amount of compassion he held for me, I melted a little inside… feeling so damn special and proud, I made a mental picture and note… this was something I wanted to remember “Jen you have absolutely no idea how much that means to me to hear you say that… how much you actually trust me!”

“Oh... I think I have a faint idea” I beamed

“Is that why you… is that why you sort of… brushed me off last time?”

“Yeah… urmm… sorry about that…” he let out a soft chuckle before leaning in close and planting a kiss on my lips

“Don’t be, I just assumed you weren’t ready to lose your virginity or something” my bottom lip quivered, it was my turn to laugh this time “What?”

“I’m not a virgin!” I blurted out, still laughing

“Really?” he asked sheepishly

“Is there something wrong?”

“No, not at all… I just feel rather stupid now… that’s all” he didn’t look me in the eye; probably out of embarrassment for guessing I was a virgin… did he really think I was a virgin? Were all the girls he met virgins?

“Leo. Look at me…honestly don’t feel embarrassed”

“I feel so…” I cut him off, moulding his lips to mine I induced a passion so powerful it left us both breathless and craving for me “Wait” he said as he began to take his shirt off, leaving me with a full view of his lightly tanned and muscled chest… he had a six pack and on his lower abdomen I saw the start of a ‘snail trail’ fiddling with his belt and zipper he quickly took off his jeans leaving him in nothing but a very tight pair of black shorts.

  My heart raced as observed his fine figure; I reached out and lightly touched his six pack which left a swarm of Goosebumps in its place, he let out a moan of delight and within seconds his lips were clasped to mine, his tongue poked through his lips and began rubbing mine, seeking access which I undoubtedly gave. He reached a hand behind my back and began fiddling with the strap of my bra, the sheer contact with my skin sent shivers from head to toe, within a few moments he had it undone but stopped and pulled back

“Are you sure?” he asked me, it was so sweet and thoughtful that he was worried… but I wanted him… and I wanted him now

“Yes” smiling that cocky school boy grin, he leaned in and began to kiss me again, pulling the bra gently away from me and flinging it to the floor he now left my breasts uncovered, I went to raise my arms to shield them… but I didn’t, he kissed me some more before breaking away to kiss my neck, my collar bone… in between my breasts then he pulled back ever so slightly, smiled and began sucking on my left breast sending waves of ecstasy and pleasure to my brain, occasionally he would lightly bite the nipple… I had a hard to supressing a moan… it felt so good

“I’m glad I have this effect on you” he said darkly, and only then did I realise my eyes were closed and I was biting my lip

“Now…” I moaned, my head filled with a want and lust, he began his trail of kisses once more, this time leading down to my panties, but sadly… I could not feel his touch... tears stung my eyes once more, but this time I did not bother to hide or bite them back… I let them fall… Leo stopped at looked at me... great

“What’s wrong?” he questioned, worry staining his eyes

“I…I can’t feel… much there...”

“Ssshhhh… it’s fine” he cooed, placing a finger to my lips “I said before… that just means I’ll have to kiss those parts even harder” I smiled at him, he kissed me on the lips before giving my stomach a big smooch… I burst out laughing; he was so sweet… caring… and thoughtful…

“Now, are you sure you’re ok”

“Yes” his grin widened and I felt his hands slowly reach my thighs, grabbing the sides of my black lace knickers which he gently pulled down, I shimmied and kicked them off… he then sat bolt upright and pulled his shorts down, leaving his member on full show… I flushed at the sight

“You’re so cute when you’re shy” he teased as he lined himself up; he looked me directly in the eyes before I felt him slide in… OMG… my mind exploded and I groaned with intense pleasure, he pulled away to breathe and moan building up a rhythm… it wasn’t long before we were both moaning, each of us on the verge of climax…my head swimming with ecstasy and endorphins a few more minutes I climaxed, clawing at his back… hoping that I didn’t hurt him as he pulled out as soon as I had, leaving me a little disappointed. I looked at him as he leaned over the side of the bed… grunting… I felt my cheeks flush as I realised what he was doing… we didn’t use a condom.

“Sorry” I whispered as he climbed back on the bed, his skin glistening with sweat, his chest heaving as he struggled to catch his breath

“For what?” he breathed

“For not… having a condom…” I felt so embarrassed “You are clean right” He burst out laughing

“Of course my sweet… but it was my mistake… but I see you enjoyed yourself none the less” he winked at me

“Shush you!” he kissed my forehead and pulled me close, tucking me under his arm

“Now, get some rest… you look exhausted” no sooner had he said it did I… peacefully and soundly asleep in his arms.