Bumilis ang tibok ng puso ko ng maalala ko kung nasan ako.
In front of Lance's house.
Awtomatiko akong napailing. This is a dream. Sigurado ako. Ilang beses ko na nakita ang ganitong setting. But now's a bit different because I'm letting go.
Siguro ay kahit dati pa ay alam ko ng panaginip ito. Hindi lang ako handang tanggapin ang lahat. I was in denial. I wanted to save him kahit imposible. I did let darkness eat me.
"Nakaready na ho ba lahat, Manong?" The man said.
Same scene. Same words. Gaya ng dati ay naramdaman ko pa rin ang panginginig ng mga tuhod ko. But unlike before, I didn't make any move, even a single effort of saving Lance. It wasn't him. This isn't real.
Kaylangan ko ng harapin na wala na talaga. Lance is dead and I cannot do anything but move on.
Masyado ng matagal at nakakainis na. I have a life ahead of me. Tama na yung anim na taong kabaliwan ko. I have to fix everything that's broken. Yung mga taong napabayaan ko.
I now have a husband and I love him. I-
"Carl?" I called in surprise. Agad bumilis ang paghinga ko kasabay ng pagbilis ng kanina'y naging kalmado nang tibok ng puso ko. It's just... It can't be...
