A Shell In The Sand

Chapter 9-

Cameron-

I sit at the kitchen table with my bowl of cereal in front of me. I look over at the clock and sees it 7.25am on a Monday Morning. I have to leave for work in fifteen  minutes but before i go i know i need to talk to my parents but all that i can think about was Saturday night. I think about all the things Lauren and Rebecca told me about Freya, I didn't know about all her loss over the thirteen years we lost touch. How did i not know any of it? Have i been so oblivious to it all along? Ignoring all her pain and only focusing on mine. If it wasn't for talking to the girls i would never have been able to understand or see Freya in the way i do now. She still doesn't want to talk to me and i can't blame her, i messed up and i have to make it up to her. I have to do what it takes to be a better person for her and for myself. I've made a lot of mistakes in the past and every time i remember their faces, the faces of my family and the disappointment that is written all over them. I don't want Freya or my brother to look at me that way anymore. I see my parents walk in the kitchen my father in his black trousers and white shirt with his usual blue tie which he wears when he doesn't have a surgery and my mother in her black trousers and blouse like she usually wears for when she goes to her teaching job, she knows she can wear something different but she thinks it is more professional that way. She doesn't enjoy mixing casual clothes with work and neither does my dad. Me on the other hand working in a bank i have to look professional and smart so it's always trousers, shirt and tie with the coat to go along with it. My parents head straight to the coffee pot that i had already filled it.

"Early morning my boy"Gordon says grabbing a mug from the rack to pour him and my mum's cup.

"Good morning Sweetheart" She says to me walking over and gives me a kiss on the forehead

"Morning" I say to them

"Sleep well?" My mum asks me as she sits down at the table and opens up the paper

"I guess"I reply drinking the last of my coffee, my dad sits down beside my mum and hands her the coffee mug which she accepts. I know right now is the perfect time to talk to them.

"I think it's time for me to start working at the bank full time instead of part time" I say to them stepping up

"Is this what you really want? or are you doing this just to make us happy?" My dad asks me lifting his head from the paper.

"It's what i want, it's the right thing to do and i need to be more responsible after what happened with Freya and the girl. I can't afford to screw up again" I tell them nodding my head

"I'm happy you have come to this decision but i only want you to be happy and if working with your uncle isn't going to make you happy then don't do it" My mum says to me with her hands holding onto her mug.

"No, i like the bank and it's a good place for me to be. Right now it's actually the best place for me to be" I inform them and i'm right, this job keeps me balanced and in line.

"You know i can easily get you a job working for me" My dad tells me like he always does, i know he is only trying to do what is best for me but i don't want to work with my dad. I see him enough as it is at him i think working together would put a strain on our relationship and that's not what i want.

"I have to get to work now, i'll see you guys later" I tell them getting up from the table and putting my bowl and mug at the side of the sink for them to be washed. I walk over to the bannister and grab my suit jacket and put it on and head out of the door. I get into my Toyota and drive off to work when i get there i park the car in the parking lot and head straight for my uncles office. I stand at the door and knock waiting for his reply.