Igniting Chances

Chapter 37

Everything

I was still in shock when next morning, dad woke me up the hospital room's sofa. He's shaking and tears were on his face.

Mabilis akong na-alarma at bumangon.

"Ahonoama!" Saktong tinawag ni daddy ang pangalan ko ay pumasok ang doctor at nurse, they went to mom. I rushed into her too. Nanginginig kami pareho ni daddy habang pinapanood ang mga eksperto sa pagr-revive sa mommy.

It was like it is the slowest and painful seconds of my life. We were nailed on the floor as we watch the doctor look at his wrist watch.

"Time of death, 5:34 am."

Hindi ako nakagalaw, dad rushed to mom. The doctor tap his shoulder before leaving the room.

Unable to move, napaluhod nalang ako. Walang lakas sa kung ano man.

Napapikit ako ng mariin at tumulo ng tuluyan ang mga luha.

"M-mommy no! Wake up!" Sigaw ko at gumapang papunta sa kanya dahil wala na akong lakas. "Oh my gosh please!" But no response.

The room is filled with my loud cry and dad's silent sobs.

Kumalma kami pagkatapos ng ilang oras, my mom's cold body was taken away to the morgue.

"Kami na ang aayos ng libi--"

"Please no funeral. J-just c-cremate her body and we'll take her home after a week or so." Hirap na saad ni daddy sa lawyer. Hindi ako kumontra o ano dahil wala sa tama ang pagiisip ko.

A week after my mom's dead we are still in a Hotel in Dubai, unable to go home. Dad is stuck in his business which is failing. While me silently looking at a beautiful marble vase where my mom is.

Isang linggo na akong ganito, walang ginagawa at nakatitig lang kay mommy.

I blame myself, wala manlang akong alam, hindi ko alam na nahihirapan na pala ang mommy dahil sa sakit nya. Nawala sa isip ko na lugi na ang family business namin pero puro gastos ako.

Napaikit ako ng mariin, another batch of tears will come, it never stop.

I was crying until I fell asleep yakap si mommy. Next morning, I woke up when I heard a sound of a broken glass.

I immediatly went out with mom, I saw dad frustratingly looking for something. Nang makita nya ako ay mabilis syang lumapit sa akin at kinuha si mommy.

"Almira! I've been looking for you all night." He smiled weakly and look at me. He doesn't look like his age, he looks older and stressed. "Kasama mo lang pala si Ahonoama." Tumalikod sya at umupo sa sofa yakap ang vase. Napaiyak ako ng tahimik. "Remember Mr.Samson?" He caress mom gently, as if it is my alive mom. "He invested again but.." natigil si daddy at napasinghot. My heart melted hearing my dad's sobs again. "But he's the one who owns the company now--" hindi na natapos ni daddy ang sinasabi at umiyak na habang yakap si mommy. "Almira, hindi ko na a-alam ang gagawin ko mahal."

I bit my lower lip trying to stop my cry. I've crying all week. I'm tired of it. But seeing my dad's cry while talking my mom's ash, talking about their failing dreams.

Gosh, this is another kind of pain.

Hindi na ako kumibo at pumasok nalang sa kwarto ko sa hotel na tinitirahan namin.

I cried all day at ganon ang ginawa ko hanggang sa umabot ng dalawang linggo at hindi pa kami nakakuwi ng Pilipinas.

Our situation is getting worst and worse.

Tuwing umaga I'll see my dad talking to my late mom, kapag hindi nya ito nakita ay magwawala sya.

He's fine but he's in pain.

I do understand him.

One morning when I woke up, dad seems fine. He isn't talking with mom, my mom's vase is above the coffee table while dad is busy with his laptop. But he's on his usual spot when he is talking to mom.

"We'll have flight later Ahonoama." My dad's low voice said. I just nodded and walked to the kitchen. "Look at this house, not big as our mansion but just a right house for the three of us, right?" Natigil ako.

Mabilis ko syang tiningnan.

"We're moving out?!" Gulat na tanong ko.

Dahan-dahang tumango si daddy.

"Our mansion is already sold, but I'm still in debt. Hope you understand Aho, babawi naman si daddy."

Pilit na iniintindi ang sitwasyon ay napatango nalang ako.

Gosh, I'm losing everything.