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My whole body freezes. It amazes him how only two words made me blush like crazy. I straighten my back. While ignoring his comment. I take one step closer to him. Now we are way too close for my own well being.

A shiver runs down my spine. My hands are sweating and my breathing is a mess but I don't dare to let that effect me even more. Even though I don't want him to leave, I know I should get him the fuck out of here. He's no good. And I know it damn well. I never let anyone this close to me and definitely someone like River.

The way he made me feel is way too addicting that it's not even healthy anymore.

With our face's so close to eachother, I look back into his eyes.
'Get the fuck out of here.'

His eyes show anger, I could see it. It's the first time I see him show any real emotions at all. It satisfies me I can make him angry. He knows he should leave before I call my dad.  He knows it damn well. But he can't accept the fact that I win. He doesn't have any control over me anymore and I'm not gonna get him that stupid document.

I smirk in amusement.

He doesn't glance at me again. And without any other word he speeds out of my house. Just like that I no longer feel the warmth of his body radiating to mine. Deep down, I don't want him
to leave. I want to know everything and I want to know why he needs the document. But this is a dangerous zone I'm crossing. The rumors about his family are confirmed. Are the other rumors also true ? And if he's working for my dad, he's definitely in no good buisness.

My eyes graze into his back. His steps are fast. With one last glance at a mad River leaving my house, I smash the front door shut. My head is leaned against the door. I shake my head.

Everything that happend in the last two months is insane. I got to know someone I never even cared about in the first place. River's eyes had never met mine before that day and I didn't care about it. But once I started knowing more and more about him and after actually having a real conversation with him for the first time in seven years, I started developing feelings for him. I had finally accepted it.

I'm madly attracted to River West.

I just hope this is the end of our short story and I won't have to feel like this again.

~

During math I suddenly get a message. As sneaky as I can, I grab my phone out of the backpocket of the ripped mom jeans I'm wearing today. It's a lazy look. A oversized grey hoodie, the ripped mom jeans and some golden goes.

My fastly beating heart calms down once I see it's just from Neomi. It had been a few weeks since the last time I talked to River. I knew it was over. Just like I wanted to, right ?

He ignored me again and so did I. We came back to where we were before, not knowing eachother. It makes me
feel a little sad, even though I know I shouldn't. He just has this affect on me I can't even explain it and even that irritates me. Not being able to explain my own feelings to myself. It feels as if my body just takes a mad turn once River's eyes meet mine. I love and hate it at the same time.

The teacher seems busy with the lesson so I quikly unlock my phone to read the message she send me.

'Troy is holding a party at our house. You coming ?'

Troy is friends with River even though I don't see them hang out at school. But I have a feeling River doesn't talk to anyone at all during school. And he will probably be there. I don't want to have anything to do with him. Besides I don't even like party's and I never even go to them so what does it matter.

'Nah I'll pass. Ask Amara though she loves partys :).'

I quikly type in my response before concentrating on the math lesson again. Before I know it I hear my phone beep again and this time a few people including the teacher gives me stare.

~

'You didn't asnwer me.'
'I was in math.'
'So?'
'So what ? I'm not going Neomi. It's not my thing.'
'Oh so what's your thing then ?'
'Sleep, Netflix and food.'
'You can do that at my house also.'
'At a party where the whole school will be? Drugs and alcohol everywhere ? I don't like that type of stuff and no one really likes me if you didn't notice it yet', I calmly explain myself while she listens to what I have to say.

We walk to where Amara is and she joins our conversation. Together we walk to one of the few left empty lunch tables.

'What are you talking about ? Everyone is just jealous of you because you're pretty and rich.'
'That's not even true', I reply.

Maybe no one really doesn't like me but they judge me and that's enough for me. I don't like socializing especially with people who judge me for who my dad is.

'I agree with Neomi. You should really come,' Amara says.
'It's gonna be lit.'
'I pass', I say again. Neomi sighs while Amara just looks at me. She suddenly speaks again. Her words shock me a little.

'This is not about socializing or drugs or alcohol or whatever other thing. It's about River because you know he's friends with Troy wich means he will be there.'

In just a split second Neomi's confused eyes meet mine and my mouth leaves a big sigh. She doesn't understand what River possibly has to do with this. I know I could trust her now and to be honest I don't have another option now. So I do the only right thing I can. I tell her every little detail of what has happend these few months.

She listens carefully while I spend the whole lunch break telling and explaining her everything. She seems to link everything together. I also explain her how I find it very hard to trust people and that's why I couldn't tell her stuff like that.

'Damn', is her first response.
'Don't tell anyone. I don't want to get in any problems and I trust you.'
'Don't worry about it too much. River probably already forgot about it. And I'm pretty sure he won't be there. He never goes to any parties.'
'I don't know. He just scares me but also makes me feel some type
of way at the same time.'

It's the first time I tell someone about my strange attraction to him. It's not only because of how his face looks. It's everything. How he is so mysterious and quiet. How he doesn't gives two fucks about anyone. The way he's body is build. His baggy style and skater boy type of hair. Just everything about him invites me in. And I don't understand how I got so obsessed with him such a short amount of interactions and time.

He gives my whole body a complete error.

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