Devils Of The Sun

THIRTY THREE

I might not do quotes anymore, what do you think? 

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North's P.O.V 

I remained completely still as I sat on the table in the medical room, I let my eyes wander as I tried to ignore what was happening around me. Miah with the help of Nymeria and Klaus dragged me to Klaus's office and sat me down. I haven't said a word, in truth I didn't know what to say or do. 

I was numb, that's the best way I can describe what I am feeling right now, Rhys has been silent as well, I assume he's resting. Jack, however, is active and won't stop talking to me, he wants me to talk about what happened back at Demetri's castle and tell them all the things I saw, but even thinking about it makes me feel sick to my stomach. 

"North, snap out of it..!" Jack demanded with a harsh tone, but I once again refused to listen, he sighed in frustration and then finally stopped trying. The blood that covered me began to dry but I didn't mind, I killed people and harmed others, I deserve this punishment. 

"Don't think like that..." Jack commanded, "It's not your fault...." he tried to reason, but in truth, I was scared to let them know what happened, what I did to get out of that hell. 

I then refocused on my surroundings, everyone was standing around me with worried looks, each standing at least two feet away from me, all except Nymeria, she stood right next to me, I guess she was going to play translator for me. 

"So, how did you find him?" Miah asked, her eyes never leaving my head, I felt uncomfortable as her eyes scanned over my appearance, my hair was matted with dry blood and sweat, my entire body was covered in blood that was mostly not my own. 

Nymeria sighed, "I told you-" she began with an annoyed tone, "I was looking around to see if I could find anything and he was there, I don't know what he was doing or why he is like this" She growled as if the questioned offended on a personal level. 

Miah glared but didn't say anything back, the tension in the room then broke when Drogo stepped in, "Hey-" he spoke moving to stand in the center of the room, "This isn't solving anything" his eyes then moved to me and my weak state, "The main focus should be North and his current well being". 

The others in the room silently agreed and Miah and Nymeria stood down, then Drogo walked slowly over to me and placed a gentle hand on my shoulder, and even though I was expecting it, the movement still made me jump a little, Drogo immediately retracted his hand and kneeled down to my level. 

His dark eyes met mine and smiled warmly, "Hey kid" he spoke in a gentle tone, one I wasn't used to after weeks of harsh demands and screams. I didn't move, I didn't do anything but stare, I then heard Klaus mumble from behind him, "He looks so confused" then Ashby cut him off, "No, he looks dead, have you seen his eyes!?". 

Drogo then turned around and glared at the two older men who shut their mouths immediately, In truth, I didn't mind their words, I know I look dead, I know I look confused. My eyes must be dull from the lack of good food and sleep, and not to mention the amount of wolfspan my body still has in its system. 

Drogo then looked back at me, "Hey, let's get you cleaned up alright?" he asked gently, but the blood I was currently covered in was a reminder of what I'd done not that long ago, I took lives and I deserve a punishment, "How many times do I have to tell you..?" Jack's voice entered my head, "You did what you had to do..." he reasoned. 

But I didn't believe him, even if they were bad, I shouldn't have killed them, I shouldn't have fought with Ajax. "North?" a familiar voice brought me back and I looked up to see Miah's face, now her and Drogo both kneeled in front of me, like parents talking to a child. 

Both looked sad and upset, to try and feel more comfortable with them being this close to me, I began to analyze their appearances, everything seemed normal till my eyes met a scar on the back of Miah's neck, it looked healed but that's not was freaked me out. That mark was the exact place I bit Ajax during the fight. 

Guilt began to consume me and my heartbeat speed out of control, I hurt her, sure it was an accident, but I still did it, I caused the person who took me in and kept me safe harm. "Stop it North...!" Jack cried out in desperation, but I refused to listen and blocked out his words and focused on Miah's neck wound. 

"What wrong North?" Miah asked when she saw my panicked state, I then carefully lifted a shaky hand and pointed to her scar, her hand then reached up and she gently touched the mark, but she then smiled and grab ahold of my hand, "It's ok, it doesn't hurt, It only happened yesterday morning, nothing to worry about" she explained to me with a smile. 

But that did nothing for me, yesterday morning is when I broke out of my prison, yesterday morning is when I fought and almost killed Ajax, if I let Rhys have complete control then, he would have ripped Ajax apart without a second thought, and if Miah got his scars and wounds, maybe it would have killed her. 

I almost killed Miah, I could have murdered her in cold blood without hesitation, tears began to roll down my face at the thought. Miah and Drogo both gasped and jumped into action as I began to cry silently. 

"North it's ok you did do anything-" Miah began sounding panicked, I shook my head wildly, I did do something wrong, I did so many things wrong and I can't fix it. 

"No!" I cried out letting more tears fall down my face, the guilt was becoming too much to handle, "I-I didn't mean to" I cried out in a desperate plea hoping she would forgive me. Nymeria grabbed my arm and I turned to look at her, "What didn't you mean to do North?" She asked in a rushed voice. 

"I-I almost k-killed him" I stuttered out in shame, killing him would have killed Miah, why did I see that before? 

"Killed who?" Drogo demanded, holding Miah's arm back from running towards me. 

"A-Ajax"