Fifty One Days

Chapter 41 'Back in the Shire'.

Chapter 41. Wohoo guys I came 3rd in a award page on here, 3rd in the romance section! Yayy. Thank you everyone for reading, sorry I've been quiet lately and left you waiting on a cliffhanger for a while, more chapters coming soon I promise. ❤📖

As I pack my things into a suitcase, I cant help but be nervous. In just over four hours time, I'll be back in Pembrokeshire. Jay and I agreed I would go down first, I think he sensed I was a bit nervous.

"Ali, just go down and settle whatever you need to get settled before I come down. Honestly its fine, I'll need to tie some things in the office before I come anyway". He tells me over dinner one night, three weeks after our engagement.

"Are you sure? I wanted you to meet everyone together. Go back as a team. Am i being weird?".

"No, you're not being weird. I know you Ali, I know you're nervous about going there. We don't have to get married there, this was your choice. We really don't have too".

"I know, I know. I'm not nervous, I just have a few loose ends back there that I never tied up before I left and I just don't want them to effect our marriage".

"Do you think these loose ends could effect our marriage?".

" I don't know. I hope not".

"That wasn't the answer I was looking for". He frowns at me.

"No it will be fine". I take a sip of my wine. "It will be fine" I say again and I don't know if I'm convincing him or myself.

I zip up my suitcase and head downstairs. Jay meets me by the front door.

"I'm going to miss you girl".

"Shut up, it's only a week and you'll be with me" I say grinning as I hook my arms round his neck.

"A week is a long time for us. I've had you to myself everyday for two years".

"I know. Anyway I'd better get going. It's a long old drive".

"Hmmm. I'm missing you already. Okay come on then". He picks up my case and loads it into the back of my new car. Jay persuaded me to buy it a couple of weeks ago, it's a really sporty number. I have no idea about cars or how much there worth. I just know I paid a lot of money for a white sports car.

I slide into the drivers seat, put on my sunglasses and turn the radio on. Once I've said a million goodbyes to Jay again and promise I'll ring him once I get there, I pull out of our drive way.

Once I hit the motor way I turn up the radio and ugly sing to nearly every song played.

I have butterflies in the pit of my stomach, I cant tell whether I'm nervous or excited. I'm looking forward to seeing Steph, Graham and all the gang and I'm so looking forward to seeing the kids, Colson and Liz...god I didn't even think about the other child that would be there....Loweri.

I had phoned Steph just before I left.
He's working all day today so you wont see him" She tells me without me even asking.

"Its fine Steph, honestly. I will be there for a couple of months while I plan the wedding so I'm bound to see him at some point. Honestly its fine". I feel like I've said 'I'm fine' So many times recently. I am nervous about seeing him. Truth be told i haven't thought about anything else since I told Jay I wanted to get married in Pembrokeshire. It's been two years Ali! It will be fine. There I go again. Fine. I'm sure it will be though. Two years is a long time and nothing really happened between us and I'm so happy with Jay now. Yeah incredibly happy with Jay. Fuck Milo.

I stop three hours into my journey. It's just coming up for 1.30pm, I was too nervous to have breakfast so I need food. I pull into a service station and park in the nearly full carpark. I should be in Pembrokeshire in about an hour and a half depending on the traffic.