Good Girls #1: Finding Rhyme

Kabanata 38

Kabanata 38

Family

Everything seems so right. I can't help but to be greedy and wished that this will last. To watch my father in front of me, holding my hand, staring at me is always my biggest qprayer and now it is happening.

"So you're turning twenty two this October?"

Ngumiti ako at tumango sa aking... Ama.

To think that the person I used to admire from a far before, the person I used to be mesmerised by because of his features and good deeds is actually my father. Siguro at hindi ko siya nakilala noon dahil ngayon ang tamang panahon na ibinigay sa akin para magkita kami.

And I don't regret anything, hindi ako nanghihinayang sa mga panahong nagdaan na wala siya, dahil naiintindihan at naniniwala akong lahat ng iyon ay mayroong dahilan. His long absence in my life made me to a lady I am today. Kahit na alam kong hindi ako perpekto sa nagdaang taon, I still embrace those because they are my only strength.

Growing up without a father figure means incompleteness in my whole life, but I know that this life will never be perfect for anyone. Sa maingay na mundong ginagalawan ko, matagal ko ng natanto na maraming tao ang umiiyak sa magkakabilang dulo, na kahit magulo ang ginagalawang planetang ito, hindi makakatakas ang lumbay at sakit sa puso nating gustong makawala.

I have long realized that having no father will only brought a long longiness and incompleteness to my life, it will make it hard for me to accept people, to trust anyone, and love someone deeply and wholly dahil alam kong hindi ako kumpleto. But despite that, matagal ko na ring natanto at natanggap na mahabang panahon ang gugulin ko para mapunan ang kulang sa puso ko kung hindi ko makikilala ang tunay kong Ama.

I looked at my father with teary eyes.

And I am so lucky and blessed because even after a long years of crying in pain and incompleteness, I have him now in front of me.

The day had come into my life when I accepted the truth that I will not meet him anymore, pero ito at isang milagro na nakikita ko siya. Remaining my faith has brought me here, and I didn't regret that even I accepted the truth already, I never lose a hope.

"We'll plan for your upcoming birthday, then. This will be my first birthday with you."

"Susano, hindi niya hilig ang mga party. A simple celebration with her love ones is what she wants."

Binalingan ko si Mama pagkatapos ay si Governor na ngayon ay kumukunot ang noong nakatitig sa aking ina.

"Then maybe Hera will love to celebrate it in my house."

Namilog ang aking mga mata. Their house, initially Eros' house is as grand as the palace I have seen in the internet. Imagining me being there while celebrating my birthday excites me and seems so beautiful, pero... nakakahiya.

Nilingon ako ni Mama, kumukuha ng sagot.

"Gusto ka rin makilala ni Cristine. And I am sure you know my two children, Van and Eros, I want you to formally meet them. They will be your brothers from now on." Governor said all those with conviction that I need a time to process all of it.

Ang Mama ni Eros ay makikilala ko, Van and Eros is now my brothers. Parang may kung anong nalukot sa aking puso dahilan kung bakit kinailangan kong huminga ng malalim.

"Susano," Mama called him.

I saw pain in my Mama's eyes but behind those is an eye of a mother who cares. Hinawakan ko ang kamay ni Mama at tinignan sa mata si Papa.

"It will be my pleasure to meet your family..." I don't know how I will call him Papa. Kanina lang ay may lakas ako ng loob, ngayon ay nahihiya na ako.