A Forbidden Affair (Guieco Clan Series #2)

CHAPTER 13- SYNTAX ERROR

I leaned against the mahogany tree as its leaves gently fell to the ground, with my notepad in hand, just sitting on one of the benches.

I simply wanted to reflect on the events that have unfolded in my life over the past 11 years.

I couldn't help but wonder, had I told Ash back then that I had feelings for him, would he still have pursued Percy? If I had confessed my emotions, revealing more than just friendship, could we have arrived at a point where secret meetings, hidden affections, and covert flirting became our reality?

I shook my head in frustration. Why are these thoughts plaguing my mind?

So, what am I to Ash now? We've both confessed our love for each other, yet we remain apart.

What if I hadn't pressured him to choose Percy? What if I had allowed him to choose me of his own accord?

Our situation is incredibly complicated. No official labels, but the feelings between us are crystal clear. We can't have labels due to the complexity of our circumstances.

It's a mess.

Sabi nila, mahihirapan ka lang naman daw kapag palagi mong sinasalungat ang takbo ng buhay o kaya ang gusto ng tadhana. Kaya ba ako nahihirapan dahil sinasalungat ko ang kapalaran naming tatlo?

"Marci!" biglang sigaw ni Kenshane  sa likuran ko.

"Haduf! You scared me! Bakit ba nang gugulat ka?" naaasar kong saad. 

Tumawa lang ang bruha. "Ang seryoso mo na naman, ah? Si Percy ay nakauwi na pala, hinahanap ka kanina."

"Really? Good to hear. Nasaan siya?" kaswal kong tanong

Akala ko ba na extend ang conference nila? Kung sabagay, mas mabuti na rin na nakauwi siya para makapagpahinga naman siya kahit papano. Masyadong workaholic, eh.

Kusang kumawala ang  aking marahas na singhap. Hindi ko alam kung bakit nanghihinayang ako sa isipang hindi na matutuloy ang pag e-stroll namin mamaya ng bossungit na iyon dahil nandito na ang nagmamay-ari talaga sa kaniya.

Well, 'di naman masakit, slight lang naman.

Talaga ba Marci? Hindi masakit?

Yeah, whatever. Nagtatanong pa, eh.

"Nasa flat ni Boss, papasok kasi siya ng magkita kami."

Bahagya naman akong natigilan.

Shit, bakit may kirot na naman akong nararamdaman?

"Gano'n ba?" Pinilit kong maging normal lang ang tono ko.

"Yeah." Pinakatitigan niya pa ako.

"Bakit?" alangang tanong ko. Umupo naman siya sa tabi ko.

She sighed and looked up before speaking, "There are things that really can't work, like they say, brought together but not destined. Loving each other, but at the end of the day, you'll still go your separate ways. Mismatched. Grammatically incorrect. Repelled. Syntax error. Many things happen like that."

Indeed, there really is no forever. Or maybe it's just us who don't have it.

"But Marci, there are also things that need a fight to become possible. Love is a debate. Rule number one: don't let competitors ruin your defense. Know and strengthen your stance. If it's wrong for them, then prove your points. If you feel like you're in a bad catch, then do your best to be in a good one."

Nakatulala lang ako kay Shane habang sinasabi ang mga iyon. Heto na naman at nag-transform na naman sa pagiging makata ang isang ito.

But she's right. Love is a debate. There are always two sides, the positive and the negative. Each person on both sides has their own moment and place to substantiate their arguments.