𝑭𝑨𝑳𝑳𝑰𝑵𝑮, djs ✓

Since You've Been Gone

DANIEL POV

dear y/n,

it's one week since you've been gone.

i'd tell you how much i miss you, but i already know you know. i still don't know if i'll send any of these letters. i have a whole pile of letters waiting to be sent. but for now, they'll be mine for safe keeping. the house has been really quiet since you guys left. it's been even more lonely since you've been gone. the guys have been coming over more often, we usually just play video games most of the time. Christian's been bringing new friends over, they're pretty cool too. Anna misses you by the way, she wanted me to let you know. she made me swear over everything. the guys miss you too. we don't really talk about girls much, it hurts to think about it. but they miss you a lot, especially Zach and Jack. i guess you were like their older sister from the sound of it. i have my audition today, not that i still want to do it. speaking of my audition, i'm gonna be late if i don't leave now. so, until next time beautiful.

all my love,

daniel

~

I know it seems stupid - writing letters to a girl who's never gonna read them. But somehow I feel closer to her by writing letters like this to her, even if she won't read them. I'm next to audition, and my anxiety is skyrocketing. I was supposed to text Y/n, but because of time zones, she's having dinner right now. I don't even feel like auditioning since she left, but I already signed up and I can't back out. I'm already the music freak, I don't need coward on my list of names. 

Before I knew it, my name is called. I walk on the stage, facing 250 empty seats in the auditorium. Ms. Adams is seated at a desk on stage left. She has a stack of papers under her desk lamp. My heart's beating fast and I'm starting to break a sweat. I can't do this.

"Daniel, so glad you decided to audition. What will you be singing?" My hands start shaking, I stuff them in my pockets.

"Um, I-I'm singing an original song, it's called What Am I." I begin to stutter and panic.

"Okay well whenever you're ready." I take a deep breath.

Here goes nothing. 

After singing, I just blacked out. I had the same numb feeling in my body, I walked out before Ms. Adams even dismissed me. I went straight home. I didn't feel like waiting for the 4:00 bus, so I walked home. I made a good decision 'cause I got to clear my head a bit. I don't think I did bad, but I didn't do amazing. I probably got the role of a tree or bush or something like that.

I went home to an empty house. Christian was at a friends house for a game night, so I had the whole house to myself. I dropped my bag at it's usual place and walked around, looking for something to do.

I found myself going into Y/n's room, well Anna's room. Anna's been sleeping over more often, this whole thing with Ethan has made us all realize that we need to spend more time together. However, Anna hasn't officially moved back in, so Y/n's stuff is still here. I drop on her bed, inhaling the sheets. They're clean now, but there's still a scent of her perfume on it. I go into her closet, completely empty. Her desk has nothing on it, not even a speck of dust. A part of me wish she left something behind, something I can remember her by. I sound stupid sometimes, I make it sound like she died. She's out there in her own world, and I'm not in it anymore.