More Than Anything [UNEDITED]

Margaux

Hindi ko magawang maging masaya.

Paano ako magiging masaya? I'm sure Quinn is sad right now. He knew that the girl he dated for five years cheated on her. And not only that, she manipulated him and made him think na siya ang ama ng batang dinadala niya.

Deonna looked at me and shrugged like she didn't do anything about this. I narrowed my eyes at her and saw Luke chuckle beside her.

I felt Quinn's hand tighten around my waist. He leaned closer until his lips are brushing my ear. "Don't worry about it."

I sighed and looked at him only to be greeted by his deep set of eyes on me. "Are you alright?"

I can hear Deonna scoffing as Luke laughed but then Quin smiled at me. "Of course. Bakit naman hindi ako magiging okay?"

I pursed my lips at the way he seductively whispered me those words. Halos lumundag ang puso ko dahil doon at hirap na hirap akong itago ang nararamdaman ko. Tumikhim ako.

"She cheated on you, Quinn," I told him.

Quinn narrowed his eyes at me. "It doesn't matter to me."

I raised my brow at him. "You don't mean that," I shook my head.

He looked at me like I told him something wrong. He's staring like I was so stupid to even utter those words.

I know the feeling of having my partner cheat on me and it isn't a pleasant experience. Most of the time, I would ask myself where I went wrong. Lagi kong inaalala kung saan ba ako nagkulang. The pain is excruciating because all my dreams with him were shattered and I once lived for our dreams together.

I wouldn't be mad if Quinn feels sad. He loved Louise for five years. Paano pala kung hindi niya ako nakitang muli? I could only imagine the pain he'd go through upon knowing that the girl he loves is having an affair with someone else.

Quinn leaned closer and smiled.

I narrowed my eyes at him. "I know you don't love her like you used to but she cheated on you while you were still in a relationship. Huwag mong sabihin sa aking hindi ka naapektuhan sa katotohanang iyon."

Hell, I don't care if Luke and Deonna are watching us like we're in a damn movie. Gusto kong ayusin ni Quinn ito. Gusto kong malaman niyang alam ko kung gaano kasakit ang mapagtaksilan. He didn't need to mask it.

"I know how it feels, Quinn," I breathed. "Alam ko kung gaano kasakit ang pagtaksilan ka ng taong mahal mo. I've been there."

Sumisikip ang dibdib ko kapag naaalala ko ang lahat ng pinagdaanan ko. I was lost. I was crying every night. I was always thinking what I did wrong. It was a traumatic experience that I don't want to feel again.

It broke me—my entirety as a person.