**TRIGGER WARNING** Brief mention of abortion and suicide. Reader discretion is advised.
You took flight
To the azure sky above us
You left me behind here
But you stole a piece of me with you
You took this knife
And now there's a hole carved in my chest
Cynthia dear, I'm sorry it's all my fault
Dear Cynthia, I'm sorry I couldn't do more for you
Cynthia dear, I'm sorry I couldn't be more
When your breath popped
And my actions replied with circumspect
Dear Cynthia,
I'm just one lone man
You showed me the mercurial side of life
Didn't you Cynthia? So now I'll withstand
Methodical and paternalistic
But dear Cynthia,
I'll never be safe or whole again
So Cynthia,
Maybe I've learned that
I don't need you to hold me together
But sweet Cynthia,
Maybe I want you to
And Cynthia,
You've up and fled away without me
How dare you leave without me?
I want to float away with you too
Dear Cynthia
--From the song Cynthia
Lyrics by: Orion Bauwens
When I got back home I told everyone how it went. I told them how wonderful my mother was. I told them how quaint her house is. I told them the surprise I had when I found out I have half-siblings.
I didn't tell them how I slipped up and got drunk.
They had their reservations about my clear, immediate attachments to my mother. Originally I tried to play it off, that it wasn't like that. But who was I kidding? This was a dream come true. I'm a pretty good judge of character, and she had nothing but warmth and love that day we spent together.
Maybe they were right. Maybe I should be more cautiously optimistic. I don't want to be though. Maybe I am setting myself up for heartache, like Jake has voiced his concern over. Maybe her enthusiasm is going to fade after a while, as Ben worries about. And maybe this'll turn into a toxic relationship, and she'll reach out to me only when it suits her (Tristan's concern).
This is the happiest I've been in awhile though. I think I deserve it. Yeah, it'll be bad if it blows up in my face. I'll be crushed, devastated. But that may not even happen. And if it does, I want to enjoy it while it lasts.
Before I left Minnesota, my mother and I exchanged phone numbers. I had her listed as Rachel in my phone. So you can imagine my surprise when a week after I got back my phone rings with Rachel on the screen.
"Hello?"
"Hi--Orion?"
I smile. "Yup."
"Do you have a second?"
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