The Journey to Escaping Darkness (Book 1)

Chapter 15

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We walked back to my room quietly with the tapes. I popped the tapes in and watched them with Oliver. It was noon when we finished watching all of them. Oliver was sitting next to me reading a book. I decided I might as well relax too, so I grabbed my favorite book and started reading too.

It was about one a.m. so I buzzed for Mona. She came in quickly with lunch. There was Toscana soup and bread. There was also a second bowl for Oliver. I handed it to him quietly.

Mona interrupted the comforting silence asking with a grin on her face "So, how has your day been going?" Oliver looked at her questioningly. He didn't catch on right away, but did. I gave her this you can leave now face.

"Oh, London wanted to see you." Mona said still standing at bedside. She kept that stupid grin on her face.

"Well, she can take care of it." I said simply starting to eat my soup. Oliver started to eat as well still staring at Mona.

"Do you want me to pass that along?"

"No, it's not your job. But if you see her, then sure."

"Alright well I'll get back to work. Hope you enjoy the soup." Mona said walking out.

"Thank you." Oliver shouted at Mona. He seemed almost like a kid sometimes. It was amusing.

We are in silence and after we finished we continued to read our books. It wasn't but after an hour that Oliver put down his book and started talking.

Damn,do you ever know how to not talk. This was going so well.

"Do you mind if I ask you a question?" He asked turning looking at me curiously.

"Sort of..." I mumbled still reading my book.

"I just was thinking about it and I wanted know why you were so shattered by Thomas. I mean I know you loved him, but I mean there has to be more, right?" He stuttered. I knew he was afraid to ask.

Most people wouldn't dare to go there with me. But Oliver proved to be different, very different...

"There were a lot of reasons why I was shattered by Thomas." I said still reading my book. I was surprised by how calm I was.

"Like what?" He continued to nag me about it.

I closed my book and looked at him with softer eyes than what I usual. "He was the first person to ever fully understand me. He never judged me. He let me be me. I feel for him hard, and quick. I was there to watch him rise then fall. It hurt that I did nothing. Plus the way he went out killed me. For me, he was another person to leave me. I needed him, he was all I had. For him to leave me alone was what killed me the most. It was selfish what he did." I explained with my eyes tearing up. Oliver looked at me sympathetically. "I was broken before Thomas. I thought he'd be the person to put me back together, but in reality he was the person to push me over the edge. He's what change me. Even now he affects me. What he did in his life changed me. What I did changed the world. Everything that happens causes another to happen. It's a domino effect." By this time tears had spilled from my eyes.

I still looked at Oliver. He pulled me closer and held me in his arms. Honestly it was the best feeling in the world.

"I just asked because of some things that have happened to me. I just wanted to see what things were like for you." Oliver said softly rubbing my back.

"What happened?" I asked him quietly. I thought he was a normal guard who had nothing before. Basically a normal person in this economy at the moment.

"A girl I used to know. I feel in love with her and she died. A drunk driver hit her. We were in love but not it didn't affect me the way I think it should have. Don't get me wrong, I was heart broken. But for you it changed you, not that it didn't change me, but it happened a long time ago. It didn't take me long to get over her though." He told me this like it hurt him. It was painful for him to tell the story. But he really didn't. He went around it. But I guess I did too...

"I was with Thomas for a long time. I knew him better than I knew myself. Of corse my past played into this too. There was a lot factoring in why I didn't come out the same person. I mean some would say I made a one eighty. Your situation was different than mine in a way. Plus at least you can let the past be the past. I can't do that." I said pulling away from him and looking at him. He had shed some tears as well but not like I did.

"I just feel like I abandoned her." he said softly letting a few more tears fall.

"You didn't. What I did was worse. I abandoned myself..." I said crying again. It was almost like a sob fest. And as depressing as I was, I needed it.

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Hi!!! Early update!!! I'm going on winter break and I'm not sure I'll be able to update as much as usual, sorry!!! Please forgive me!!! Hope you guys liked the chapter!!! And also please check out my new story All I See is Red!!! Love you guys ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️