Vanilla's Poser Girl

Chapter 6

Vanilla

"Hon, I want you."

All I could hear is Carmi's whispers and moans as I continued to worship her body. I kissed her hungrily. Mula sa labi nito, I could feel the heat coursing from her mouth to mine. It's delirium. I could feel every fiber of my body being consumed with this stranged kind of heat.

I never felt it before. It's making me to crave something I'm not familiar with.

"Can you feel it, Van?" Nang-aakit pa na sabi ni Carmi bago ako marahas na tinulak pahiga ng kama. She sat on top of me.

She's kissing my earlobe while her hands is busy undressing me.

Fudge! What's wrong with me? Is this the kind of heat that everyone is feeling to satisfy their internal beast?

No, I'm not ready yet. I want to get married first!

Bawat dampian ng labi nito ay parang sinusunog yung pakiramdam ko. It's painful but I could feel the intensity of the heat. A contrast mixture of pain and pleasure.

"No, Carmi. Stop. I'm not yet ready."

Tumawa lang ito. She's undressing herself too.

"You want me too, Van."

From my earlobe, her lips travelled to my neck. Down to my shoulders. Down to my chest.

My body is burning in need. But my mind is resisting.

"Fight me, Van. Resist me if you can. Hurt me. Pleasure me the way I'm giving you what your body craves."

I felt a tear slipped my cheeks.

Am I too drunk?

"Stop, Carmi. Please d-don't." Tinulak ko sya pero I'm feeling too weak. It's as if at every move I make, mas bumibigat yung pakiramdam ko.

Hinawakan ni Carmi yung leeg ko. She's strangling me. I could feel my tears brimming at the sides of my eyes as I gasped for air.

Tumawa ito.

"Stop resisting, Van. You're so hot! You're all mine. Just mine." Sabi pa nito habang marahas na naglalakbay yung mga kamay sa katawan ko.

I felt violated. I don't want any of it. But my body is betraying me. Why won't it move? Why is it burning at every touch, at every grope? Am I really liking it?

Damn, Leigh. Where are you?

I just closed my eyes.

It's Carmi. It's okay, Van. You love Zero, right?

It's okay. Don't be such a crybaby. You don't need Leigh right now. Of course, intimate moments is limited to you and your girlfriend.

I shout in pain when Carmi finally did it. My body wasn't even ready.

"St-Stop.."

"You want it, Van. You want it this rough, don't you?"

It hurts, Leigh. It does. Where are you? I need you.

"Vanilla!"

I felt the gentle tug on my shoulders. It's pulling me from my slumber.

I opened my eyes and saw it again for the first time after two years. That sweet golden amber eyes.

My tears are forming at bay. Am I dreaming? Am I really missing Leigh this much?

"Vanilla.. Are you okay?" Nag-aalalang tanong nito habang nakatingin pa din sa akin at sinasalubong yung mga mata ko.