Vanilla's Poser Girl

Chapter 5

Leigh

I'm still drying my hair nang marinig ko yung sigawan sa labas.

Maybe, Van is being an ass again. She's really a dimwit.

What's this rumor? Hindi pa nga ako nakakatulog ng maayos matapos akong sunduin ni Railey ay nandito na naman itong tanga na 'to at pinasasakit ang ulo ng mga tao.

Seriously?

I don't know why I'm rushing para lang makita yung taong pinalayas ako dahil lang nagkalove-life na sya at hindi nya na ko kailangan. Bwisit talaga sya.

How foolish, naive, and crazy that girl can be? I wonder too.

Since we were kids, napakaiyakin nya. Kaya naman lahat kami natataranta pag may kailangan sya. Because she'll scare the hell out of us pag hindi nya nakukuha yung gusto nya.

That's why I and Sammie, the level-headed ones, are the one who's trying to be her voice when she can't express her feelings into words. It's so easy to misunderstand Van's intention, but dealing with her is so easy.

As i stepped out of the room. I then saw her. Napasandal ako sa pinto ng kwarto while analyzing the changes that happened to her physical appearance in the past two years.

What happened to you, Vanilla?

She's sporting a new hair color. But it definitely suit her. Her clothing style hasn't change. The only thing I don't like is her skinny body and the excessive piercings. She even have it on her nose and lower lip.

Seriously Van? Is this what you're making yourself busy para hindi ako tawagan?

It's two years, you dumbass. Tapos aabutan lang talaga kita na ganito? Akala ko pa naman sasabihin mo sakin how unfulfilling my life was without you. But here you are, proving me once again that you need me more than I need you.

I watched as she clutch her heart as if wallowing in her imaginary pain.

"Help me.."

That's enough to make me run beside her and to catch her before she falls.

That brought a throbbing pain in my chest.

It's the exact line she'd asked me thirteen years ago. When we were kidnapped and she sobbed just beside me. She's clutching my hand too tight. Asking me to help her. To save her. Because she's afraid of the dark and ghost. She's afraid of cockroach and rats. She's afraid of spiders. She's afraid of the bad guys. She's afraid of an empty room. She's afraid to die. She's just basically afraid of everything because she's afraid to feel alone.

That's Van's greatest fear.

And here we are again. She's sinking in her imaginary self.

Just like thirteen years ago, I found myself saying again that exact line,

"Don't worry. I've got you."

Tuluyan nang bumagsak yung katawan ni Vanilla sa mga braso ko. Looking at this proximity, I can't help but to wonder.

What happened to this dumbasss?

"Don't do anything stupid, Sammie." Sabi ko bago binuhat si Van.

Huminga muna ako ng malalim para pakalmahin yung sarili ko. Kahit si Sammie din ay nanginginig sa tindi ng galit nito. I haven't seen her this mad. Ngayon lang. And it's scaring me. Maybe because Van is the closest to her. And seeing Van like this is stirring her strings.

Grant is also losing the color of her eyes. She's reaching the highest level of her killing intent.

Maybe Grant is being reminded of her mother's breakdown after her father abandoned them. She'd seen the worst form of love that's why seeing Van in this state, relived those dark memories.