tom holland oneshots

you'll never know

warnings : angst?

summary : reader is dating someone.. and it isn't peter.

word count : 500 ( blurb )

note : inspired by ariana grande's song "you'll never know"

She loved Peter. Of course she loved him, they've been best friends since kindergarten. But he was just too late. When Y/N was fifteen, she had realized her feelings for Peter. It was unmistakable love for the brown eyed boy, but as time went on, she lost hope. Peter never showed signs of the same feelings, at least, not to Y/N. 

When Y/N started dating Harry, Peter's heart broke. Was he not being obvious enough? Of course he was, but Y/N would obviously never feel the same way about him. Little did he know.

It was month six for Y/N's relationship with Harry, and the dynamic between her and her best friend, Peter, changed drastically. Peter wanted to be in Harry's place. Y/N didn't know that, though, and while she did have feelings for Peter, they had shrunk to a small, unnoticeable size. Harry had asked her out, and knowing things with Peter were at a dead end, she said 'yes,' not expecting them to actually hit it off. Things progressed and they've been dating ever since, while Peter just watched from the sideline. 

Y/N was sitting on Peter's couch. It was four o'clock on a Saturday, and she had a date with Harry that night, so she couldn't stay long. Truth be told, Peter and Y/N didn't see each other as much as they used to, thanks to Harry. Y/N didn't mind all too much, but Peter hated it. That should be me. 

"So, what're we watching today, Pete?" Y/N asked, putting her phone down. 

"Uhm, actually-" Peter stammered nervously. "Before we w-watch the- movie, I actually wanted to tell you something."

"Oh," Y/N said softly. "Okay, yeah. I'm all ears, Pete." 

The nickname made him pause. He took a deep breath before talking, "I- uh.. I really like you, as more than a friend. I've always wanted to tell you," he glanced at Y/N, who's eyebrows were furrowed. "I just- I didn't know how, or when, or if you would feel the same-"

"Peter, I'm with Harry," Y/N said.

"I know, but it just-" he looked her in the eyes, tears blurring his vision. "It hurts me so much to see you with him."

"I'm sorry, Peter," Y/N said. Peter breathed out a sign of relief, expecting her to say something good, positive. "But I'm with Harry. If you had told me months ago," she started fiddling with her fingers, "Something could've.. happened between us. But nothing did."

"But-" a single tear fell from his eye, "we should be together. I can't stand you with him," Peter confessed. 

"Peter," Y/N said sternly. "You can't make me seem like the bad guy when I'm finally moving on. I'm with him, and that's that."

Peter was getting frustrated, voice raising slightly. "But you didn't tell me about your feelings for me, either!"

"Peter, I never said I had feelings for you." 

"You said-"

"I said, something could've happened between us and I could've grown feelings for you, but nothing happened." While Y/N knew lying to him about her past feelings was wrong, Peter had no right to try and separate who she was with now. "I think .. I think I'm gonna go, Peter. I'll see you around."