"That's me" // Xukun's FF

Chapter 5

Xukun's POV

"Tell me, how did you manage to convince your doctor so he let you out of the hospital?" Yanjun asks me as we drive to the company. I think the place where I work might be a good bait for my memory.

"I told him that maybe I should start to see how my brain will react to the outside word and get used to the world beyond the hospital. Also because I have to come back later then they have to check my head and see if there are some changes...this doctor is young and it seems he is really passionate about brain and all so that's why I'm here," I explain smiling to myself proudly. My mind must be working quite well. I persuaded my doctor to break some rules...you have to be something to do that.

"You're impossible..." he shakes his grey head with his eyes glued to the road. Suddenly, the school appears in my sight and a light pain hits me.

"The one with white skin, brown hair and blue eyes."

"What are you doing here?"

"You're coming with me."

"Don't tell her what to do, she can decides by herself."

"Cheng, that hurts."

"Stop it babe, she knows what she's doing."

"At least you've got a good taste in music, Xukun."

"Something wrong?" Yanjun asks worried but I just shake my hand as shaking my head would be a really bad idea.

"I'm okay. I think I've just remembered something," I answer truthfully. It was Nana again...and Chengcheng and so many people. And again this girl that was talking to me while I was writing the lyrics. Why I was here? And where I had to take Nana? Also was Cheng jealous? But I remember him holding hands with that unknown girl.

"Maybe you should be a doctor then...see, the school moved your brain," Yanjun says smiling as if he was proud of himself.

"Did you do it on purpose?" I question even though I already know the answer.

"Maybe," my driver trails off and I chuckle under my breath. At least he hasn't changed. Yanjun has always been a quiet genius. It's like...he's stupid on the outside but quite smart deep inside. He can hack computer yet sometimes I wonder what's going on inside his head.

"Hey, Yanjun, remember that one time when you texted me 'very important come ASAP' just because you were afraid of a spider?" I say smiling at the memory. I remember it clearly even though the rest of a day is an unclear vision of nothing.

"When?" he asks confused. His brows furrowed.

"Hey...you have to remember that. I remember the situation but to be honest I don't know when it was. I just remember the message from you and then I'm in your house...that looks differently then the one I remember," I say hesitantly thinking about the memory. Maybe it's my brain playing tricks on me.

"Xukun...it's a memory from the time you were here already. The time you already knew everyone," Yanjun states suddenly. His eyes wide open in shock. As a small smiles comes to his face.

"So how come I remember this one clearly and it didn't take any effort to find it in my mind yet I don't have a clue about anything what happened before that. How come every memory from the time that has been deleted from my brain comes back with pain and appears not clearly...only partly with no contest, no background. More like it was all a dream than a memory," I confess sighning deeply. It's nice to finally let it out. "You and Ziyi are the only ones I remember and the only ones I trust. Everyone are just a bunch of strangers. I don't remember my father, my stepsister, my stepbrother and this girl Nana."