Falling For A Hot Nerd

Thirty Four | Just say it.

Jon's View 

It's been a week and the exams had pass. Fortunately, I pass every exam and surprisingly aced the math test. I know, I was blown away too. For someone who's bad at numbers I did great. So far its great, the only thing is, I've been avoiding Luna and I think she's starting to notice.

 After that library thing, I couldn't stop thinking about her, and how bad I wanna kiss her. I mean, can you blame me? The girl is the epitome of perfection for me, only problem is she's totally into my brother.  I might be out going and shit, and i know I learned to be comfortable  around her over time, but I got shy. 

I went out of the chemistry room after the bell rang, my mind obviously not with me at the moment, then I saw Luna talking to someone over the phone. My locker was not that far from hers, but I make sure she won't notice me. I can her her happy voice as she talks to the phone, she was smiling too.

 I wonder what they're talking about? Is it a guy? So what if it's a guy? Leave it. 

 I was about to go when I heard her say the guys' name.

"Yeah, we're still on after class- yeah, sure, you could do that- alright, thanks Shane." 

Did I hear her right? What's she going to do with Shane?

I overthink as I stand there looking at her. She presses her phone dead, then close her locker, seeing me after she turns around. I saw her smile at me, waved her hands on me but I panicked. I know I'm so taking the L right now but I don't know if I can talk to her. So, I ignored her, again. I can see her face dropping the smile turning into frown, but I still walk away from her.

After class, I'm still thinking about what I heard the in the hallways. Given the history of Luna and Shane and me, I can't stop thinking about what would they do after school. But I shouldn't be suspicious right? I mean, my brother is dating someone, right?

It really bothers me. So I dialed Shane's phone number, and it takes a few rings before he answered.

"Yeah?" He answered.

"Where you at? Wanna go for some pizza? I'm  craving a box right now."

What? Jonathan? Are you really trying to stop him to meeting with Luna?

I guess I am. I'm freaking out!

"Ah, I'd like to, but I have somethings to do after."

"Yeah? Like what?" I asked as if I don't know.

"Uhh, just meeting a friend."

"Who?" I asked, slightly sounding aggressive.

Shane pauses for a second, and I bit my lip as I wait for him to answer.

"Sorry bro, have to go, other line. See ya."

"No, I have something to-"

I don't know why, but I panicked after the call ended. Then I saw Luna, walking out of the classroom, talking to someone, probably Shane, on her phone.  And without thinking, I started following Luna. A few blocks later, she finally stopped at a mini cafe. I waited a few minutes after  I enter the cafe, and there I saw Shane greeting Luna with a hug. So I decided to stay and watch for some reason, sitting a few tables away from them, where they can't see me, yet I can possibly see and hear them. 

This is great. Now, I am the one who's stalking her.

Luna's View

I decided to meet with Shane so we can talk about why Jon has been ignoring me lately. I figured he would know because they live in the same house. I'm not blind or numb, I can tell when people don't wanna talk to me. I don't wanna be ignore by my favorite person, but unfortunately I am now. 

I enter the cafe seeing Shane looking outside the window, while drinking his tea.  I walk over to him and he greeted me with a hug, which is surprising because Shane never do that with me, but I hugged him back so wouldn't seem awkward, then  sat down in front of him.

"Hey, thanks for coming. I really appreciate it."

"No biggie, though I don't know why Jon is ignoring you. He seems okay to me, did something happened?"

I frown as I try to remember, but I shook my head.

"Not at all? A thing you can remember?"

I think more, then I remember the thing back in the library. 

But it couldn't be, can it? 

Shane seems to notice me remembering the event and he sighs, leaning on his chair.

"So, something did happened?"

"Well, I wouldn't say that. It almost happened, but he - I don't know."

"What almost happened, Luna?"

I look at him, starting to feel shy as I felt my face getting hot. 

"Well, we um, we almost kiss."

"Oh."

"But it could've been my imagination, or something. As if he's going to do that? He hates me from what happened before. That's not possible,right?"

He smirk and he put down his tea, his two hands on his head looking at me teasingly.

"One thing I know about my brother is he's shy whenever something happened between him and someone he likes. And no, he doesn't hate you from what happened before. He doesn't  eve know the whole story so he just choose to let you go without even investigating why it happened."

"What are you talking about?"

"I kept your secret, I didn't tell him how you feel back ten cause I want you to tell him yourself, even though I really want to tell him. I guess your both cowards."

"So your saying-"

"Yes, he felt the same way. Its just you who made things complicated. Pretending not to know the difference between me and him, and use it as an excuse for you to hide your felling, when you're actually the only one who can identify who is who between us, and when you know its gonna hurt him, is not a good way to chicken out. You could've just told him. You hurt him, Luna. Thank God his Jon, because if its not, then he wouldn't be as comfortable to be around you knowing your history together." 

It does make sense. I was indeed a coward. Back then when nobody knows the difference between the two of them, I was the only one who knew who is who. I initially liked Jon, why? Because his fun, and I'm happy to be around him. His energy is limitless, and I can't imagine a day without absorbing his lively energy. So what I did, I pretended to be confessing to Shane when I know its actually Jon. I pretended that I didn't know who I'm talking to cause I'm dumb, and I felt like my heart is going to explode, add the fact that he might not feel the same way about me scared me. Its the anxiety that prevents me from getting my balls together an just tell him. I know its a 50/50 chance, but I feel so ashamed that I messed up. 

"Now, I know what I have done wrong I felt even  more guilty. If only I can do something to make it right."

"That could be helped. Turn around and just say it to him."'

I frown unsure of what he said and he smirked, pointing behind me. My heart jump out of my chest when I find Jon sitting behind us, completely flabbergasted. 

Oh, crap.

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