Poetry For The Broken

Not to remember

He raped me
He was my friend
He said he wouldn't hurt me in anyway
Every touch left me in pain
He kept saying he loved me
He hurt me
I tried to ignore the feelings of sadness
I saw him, he acted like he normally does
I felt everything but here he was talking like none of it happened. I was the only one hanging unto the pain he caused
I couldn't get the image of what he did out of my head
I thought of death
It was all my fault trusting him wasn't it .?
I hurt myself
I kept putting myself in situations
I have a lot to say but who would listen
After all I was the one who put myself in the position for him to do it,

It was wrong to go to a boys house alone I have been told
I wanted him to feel the way I did
He has moved on ,he even has a girlfriend, she is beautiful
He ruined me
How dare he be happy!
I wanted change
I cut my hair
I still felt the same
I tried to write on paper reasons to live
I couldn't
I don't want to remember
So i put myself to sleep forever.