Poetry For The Broken

If i kill myself

If the news reaches you that I killed myself
I don't want anyone at my funeral
I don't want my friends coming and giving speech of how they were there for me or how much they loved me while I was alive when I never felt love
I don't want anyone thinking it was their fault or blaming themselves for not noticing because there is nothing they could have done honestly
I don't want anyone talking about how I used to be a happy kid cos if anything I was far from happy
I don't want anyone talking about how much love I gave out
Please don't mention the times I made you laugh or smile because I wasn't happy so there was no way I could give out something I could not feel
Bury me 6 feet deep and forget about me because for once I would like if my wishes are respected