Love in the Cold Wind

07

Chapter 7: CARE

That was our worst fight! We settled it the same day and told him that everything's okay for me.

It was the first time that happened so I forgave him.

I don't want to lose him. Adrian is now part of my life. I can't let him go. I planned my future with him.

We will reach our dreams together.

He will be my husband.

He will be the father of my children.

We will grow older together.

I planned it all because I am this sure that I'm only meant for him. I am this sure that I love him. I am this sure to have plans with him.

But I hope he's also sure with me.

"Ma, hindi pa rin ba tumatawag si Papa sa'yo?" tanong ko kay Mama na ngayon ay kaharap ang maraming papel.

She's planning to have a money loan from a company. I'm against it because it will only make her problems worse.

Marami na nga siyang utang at plano niya ulit dagdagan iyon.

"Ma, pwede ka naman humingi ng tulong kay Lola," sambit ko muli nang hindi niya ako pansinin.

She's very focused in calculating something in her scientific calculator. She aged a bit. She's very stressed because of her business.

I can't do anything because I'm still a student. Kung may trabaho lang ako, ako na ang tutulong sa kanya.

"Anak, sesermunan ako ng Lola mo kapag nalaman na nalulugi ang negosyo ko. At pakiusap,  h'wag sana makarating sa kanya 'to," sabi niya.

Hindi na muli ako nakipag-usap kay mama at saka umakyat na lang sa aking kwarto. Masyado na akong maraming iniisip kaya hindi ako makapag-aral nang maayos.

Papa is not calling us for weeks. He's not sending us money.

Mama is so stressed. She can't let go of her business.

Adrian is still acting different. He's always jealous and insecure in everything.

Napahawak naman ako sa aking noo para masahihin ito. Kaharap ko ngayon ang makakapal na libro at aking laptop. Finals is upcoming and I'm not confident if I will do good. It's my third year.

And this summer, I will spend it in Felix's company. Mayroon kaming on-the-job training. We need 240 hours to render.

Ngunit kahit anong basa ko ay hindi pumapasok sa isip ko.

This is so wrong! I can't afford to lose points! I can't afford to fail! Not right now, I swear!

Nanatili akong ganon sa mga sumunod na oras. Patingin-tingin din ako sa aking cellphone. Nagbabaka sakali akong tatawag si Adrian. Alam ko naman na marami siyang ginagawa pero sana man lang ay tawagan niya ako.

Bigla ko namang naalala si Papa. Kamusta na kaya siya? Hindi siya tumatawag sa akin kaya mas nag-aalala ako.

Naisip ko naman na tawagan si Caleb ngunit ayokong makaistorbo. Matagal na rin nang huli kaming magkausap. At hanggang ngayon ay hindi ko pa rin nakakalimutan ang itsura niya.

I tried to searched for his Instagram account and I didn't failed. I found him!

@caleb_isaiah