Torn Apart

Chapter Thirty Three

"Ah."

Babe gestured me to open my mouth. My mouth watered at the sight of sinigang na milkfish with the cheese on top of it. He wants to spoon feed me. Kaya agad ko naman isinubo ang pagkain na nasa kutsara.

I saw Andrew's reaction wasn't pleasant. He looks disgusted of what I'm eating. Sarap na sarap naman ako dahil naghahalo ang asim at tsaka lasa ng cheese.

I gave him a thumbs up. "It's good." I said while I'm chewing the food. He gave me  again a disgusted reaction. Napailing na lang siya. Kaya kumuha rin ako ng kutsara at sumandok ng sinigang at nilagyan ng cheese sa ibabaw nito.

"Try it." I said while I'm holding the spoon and blew it a bit.

"What? No way!" I glared at him.

"Just one taste! Come on!"

"Hell. I won't eat that." He pursed his lips. Inilapit ko naman sa bibig niya ang kutsara. "Just try it! Hindi ko naman pinipilit na kainin mo lahat!" Tumawa ako.

He sighed. "Fine. But just taste 'kay?" I nodded. Sinubo niya ang laman ng kutsarang hawak ko. He chewed the food but his reaction is priceless! I bit my lower lip to contain my laugh. Para siyang natatae na ewan.

"Damn. This tastes really bad." Napangiwi siya pero kinain niya naman. Ang arte naman nito. Ang sarap naman a? Hindi ko na siya sinubuan ulit at kumain na lang.

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The Thursday morning we woke up early because I will be the one who will send him to the airport. He already wearing his uniform when we get in the car.

I sat beside him. He started the car. Tinitigan ko lang siya habang may tinitignan pa siya sa phone niya. Ang bagay sa kanya ang suot niyang uniform. Tapos may pabilog na pa siya na hat. Ang swabe. The features of his face matched the hat he's wearing.

His prominent jaw that when he got angry and irritated ay nagtatagis. Ang mata niyang hindi na friendly at masyado nang misteryoso. His perfect pointed noise and his lips..

Napanguso ako. Aalis na naman siya. I'm a big liar if I will deny that I won't miss him! Syempre ma mi-miss ko siya. Ang lahat lahat. Ang pabango at ang mga damit niya.

"Don't worry. I left some of my clothes and perfume. You can use it." Sabi niya at pinaandar ang sasakyan. Napatitig ako sa kanya.

These days I have noticed something changed the way I act. I easily get irritated, na kahit hindi ako gaano nagagalit sa mga estudyante ko ay nagagalit ako. My food preference changed too. It's kinda weird because the food that I didn't like then, became my cravings! Tapos si Andrew, palagi ko na rin sinusuot ang mga damit niya.

Kong pwede ko lang isuot papunta sa paaralan ay isusuot ko na! What the hell is wrong with me?Malapit na ba dalaw ko kaya nagiging ganito ako? Or....

Pinilig ko ang ulo ko sa naisip. It's impossible. I drink pills-

Oh wait. Pills!

Damn! The last that time that I drink pills was before the first time he left me! And after that, I can't remember I drink it again! Shit! I need another pills! Sa pagkakaalala ko ay sa side table ko 'to nilagay but why I didn't see it again? San ko ba nilagay 'yon?

I really need another bottle of pills! Napatampal ako sa noo ko.

I breathe heavily. I'm starting to get panic but I did inhale exhale and started to relax.

"You okay?" Tinignan ko si Andrew.

"Nakita mo ba pills ko sa kwarto ko?" I asked.

"Oh that? I mistaken it as my vitamins that's why I brought it with me. Pero nang nakita ko ay tinapon ko na." He simply said that it was no big deal!