Torn Apart

Chapter Eighteen

Andrew and I didn't talked about what he said to me. Kahit noong nagsimba kami ay nanatili siyang cool sa akin. Ako naman ay kabado kahit na kumakain lang kami sa 7/11.

"Isa lang binili ko na gulp. Share na lang tayo. " He said. He's wearing a plain black t shirt faded pants and white shoes. Pero bat ganun ang simple pero ang lakas ng dating?

I looked at his lips. It's so very red. And adams apple niya na masyadong sinful. Why.. Why is this man was so gifted? Kahit sa mga simpleng bagay na sinusuot niya ay angat na angat ang pagkagwapo niya.

"Huy! " He snapped his fingers in front of my face.

"Ha?"  Namula naman ako dahil masyado ko siyang tinititigan. " Ah wala, wala. " Sabi ko. Binalik ang tingin sa kinakain kong siopao.

"Anong wala? Sabi ko isa lang binili ko na gulp. Share lang tayo. " Sinilip niya ang mukha ko nang nakakunot ang noo.

"Okay nga! "

"Bakit ka galit? " Tanong niya. "Sumisigaw ka? Galit ka ata, e. " Inis ko siyang sinulyapan. I caught him smiling but it faded immediately.

"Oo na bibili pa ako ng isa. Akala mo sa akin may virus e. " Tumayo siya at pumasok ulit.

How could he act like he said last night wasn't a big deal? Or ako lang talaga itong assumera? He said he loves me? Was that true? How could he deepened his feelings for me when it supposed to be like-like lang!

He also said he has a crush on me, and I assumed that it will remain a crush until now and it's okay to have a relationship to a guy who has a crush on you.  Crush ko din naman siya a? Bakit love na?

That's is the reason why it didn't let me sleep for how many days. At worst, it was also the reason why I forgot to study in our PolGov! Oral recit pa naman! And worst among the worst nabunot ang index card ko!

"So Miss Velasquez, what is the importance of studying governance? "

Ano daw? Governance? The heck? I didn't even read about it! Putek naman oh?

"A-ah ano sir.. " Napakamot ako sa buhok ko. It's either zero or twenty ang score mo dito! Anong isasagot ko?

"Ano? " Putek nakatayo pa ako sa harap!  I mean dito sa aisle ng classroom at nasa harapan lang si sir! Shit!

"Governance, the people.. " Tumikhim ako. "Most especially the people of the country," I stopped. I couldn't even finished the sentence! Damn it! Huminga ako ng malalim. Isipin mong mabuti!

I closed my eyes and breath again. "It is important to study governance so that the citizens would be aware of the need of good governance. Therefore, such awareness should move them to action. " I stopped again thinking for another sentence. Para akong tanga dito na kamot ng kamot sa ulo ko.

"So? " He said. Kumabog naman ang dibdib ko. "God, it was so easy! I said you could answer it on your own but with relation to our topic! Anong score ang ibibigay ko sayo! " Napapikit ako. "Again what is the importance of studying governance! " Napatalon pa ako sa kaba. Bakit kasi hindi ako nagbasa e!

Wala namang sinabi na own answer e.

"Hindi ka makakaupo kung hindi mo masasagutan yan! " Nagsimulang nagbulong bulongan ang mga kaklase ko. Inilabas nila ang mga notes nila. Sumigaw naman ulit si sir.

"Put  back your notes inside your bag! I told you before to read and study everything! You are HUMSS students dapat lagi kayong nagbabasa! Bakit pa kayo nag HUMSS kung gusto nyo ay palagi teacher ang nag didiscuss sa inyo!" He shouted like a madman.

Hindi naman ako nahihiya dahil nakatayo ako dito sa harap na hindi makakasagot eh. Halos lahat naman kami napapagalitan. I mean halos lahat ng HUMSS students sa iba't ibang section narasanasan na nila yung naranasan ko ngayon. Tatagan mo lang loob mo.