Dreaming Hollywood

Chapter 53

My first interview is fine.  I am extremely happy, even the reporters complimented me on how I spoke, honestly I don't know how I managed not to shit but in any case I'm happy.

After two hours...

Wonderful!  The film was beautiful, I liked it a lot, many scenes made me laugh, it's a comedy film, of course, but it doesn't make you laugh but I laughed because it made me strange to see me on the big screen, it was always my dream but to see me there  it made me very strange.

Now I want to talk to my mom.  "Mom? Are you proud of me?"

"Of course my darling, why shouldn't I be?"

"I wanted to carry on your name, keep up the name of a fantastic dancer, did I do it?"

"My darling, you didn't have to do it for me, if this is your true dream you did it for yourself"

"I did it for me ... and for you, to make you proud of me"

"You are beautiful Claudia! In these months you have truly grown, matured, you have become a real woman" we hug each other and this hug is sincere, full of love, of sincere love.  I have always loved my mom but now even more, then Sergio hugs me too, he is not my real father but I love him as a father and he always makes me feel his love and then I look up to the sky, touching me dad's necklace, I know he's looking at me and he's proud of me.

One week later...

My film has just been released in all theaters in America and then will be released worldwide in dubbing.  I can't wait to hear myself voiced in Italian, who knows who will dub me ... In Italy I have not told any of my friends that I have recorded this film, not even to Sara after she called me to make peace we no longer heard, I don't know what happened to her, I just hope it is fine, even if we split up in a cruel way it will remain a fundamental part of my life, together with mom and Sergio she also saved me from the tunnel where I was sunk.

To distract myself from the negative thoughts about Sara that had invaded my head I decide to open the COMMENTOIFILMDELMOMENTO.COM site, it's a stupid name for a site but it is very popular, the owner is a renowned film critic and people rely heavily on his reviews  to know whether to go or not to see a certain film, I have watched it many times, even when I was in Italy and I must say that he is always right in its reviews, many times I tried to watch a film that had reviewed  negatively to see if as a movie it was objectively bad or it was just a subjective judgment and actually if he reviewed it negatively it was because it was an objectively bad film.  If he reviews you badly you're screwed, you can also say goodbye to your career and I, apparently I want myself badly and I want to hurt my potential "career", I opened the site to look for my film and see the review and maybe not  I should have done it, in fact, the site reads the phrase: "I think the exact words to describe this film are: an unwatchable film. With this film Frank Hill has really fallen to me, banal direction and worse set design, it looks like a film shot  with a green screen in an industrial building. And then we don't talk about the actors, the girl who had the part of the protagonist seemed that she had never seen other people, she reasoned on her own and that's all she could see from how she acted, she didn't give us emotion  or intonation in what she said and the other boys were even worse, they moved as if they were in plaster. So in a nutshell, totally FLOP film "

I'm in tears, very heavy tears, the last time I cried like this was when my father died, I knew I didn't have to open this site and yet I did.

I close the computer and hug it, lie on the bed with my face on the pillow and cry, cry until I get dehydrated.

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Hi guys, this is the fifty-third chapter.

Hope you like it,

Altea

PS: What do you think of this negative review?  Do you think Claudia will get up and sink back into depression?