𝑆𝐻𝑂𝑂𝑇𝐴

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𝔼𝕤𝕤𝕖𝕟𝕔𝕖💛
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I hate it here.

2 days ago Dejuan came back for his phone and we got into a fight over him leaving some words were said and now he can leave I don't care no more. I do care my eyes are puffy from crying every night. I miss my baby.

"Sitting here feeling kinda crazy. And not just any crazy, it's the kind you feel when you love somebody. And I know that my baby, is calling somebody else baby. And I can't sit still, look how gone it got me.

Who knew that my heart could have a bruise? You see this scar here on my chest? I'm hurting and he don't even care. It's 4 am and my lover won't answer. He's probably somewhere with a dancer. Sipping champagne while I'm in his bed.

It's 4 am and I think I might lose it. This mf thinking I'm stupid. He must've bumped his head. Don't he know it's 4 am?" I sung laying on Sammy floor

"Standing here and I'm getting heated. Pouring me up a drink I swear I need it.
I think I'm about.. bout to hurt somebody. Swear this man is begging me to leave him. Getting sick of being so mistreated. Another night without, without his arms around me.

Who knew that my heart could have a bruise? You see this scar here on my chest? I'm hurting and he don't even care. It's 4 am and my lover won't answer. He's probably somewhere with a dancer. Sipping champagne while I'm in his bed

It's 4 am and I think I might lose it. This mf thinking I'm stupid. He must've bumped his head. Don't he know it's 4 am?" Sammy sung laying next to me.

"I don't deserve this life.." I started "I'd make the perfect wife.." Sammy added "And I know love's a sacrifice." I sung "But who gonna sacrifice for me and give me all their time?" We looked at each other.

"Yo brother a bitch." I said wiping my tears. "Yo bestfriend a hoe." She said sniffing. "I miss him. Call him and tell him I said I didn't mean what I said." I sniffed.

"And I don't want no more love, I feel its poison. Late at night I can't sleep cause I hear voices. Telling me I'm too deep, quit tryna force it, yea yea yea. Got too much stuck on my chest, can't get it off of me. I put my demons to rest but they been stalking me. Lord knows I tried my best, I gave it all of me, yea yea yea.

Late at night, I been roaming, I ain't getting no sleep. It's hard to stay focused when that pain running deep. Been alone my whole life, but you helped me forget. Then you made me remember my heart cold as December.

Learning to love myself, I been alone every weekend. They say he out of breath because he been running from demons. You left, I needed help, you were someone that I believed in. People change like the seasons, I'm asking what's the reason?

Then I been thugging dolo, lay in my bed and cut off my phone. I smoke that dope alone, me and others don't get along. You can't peep the pain in my face but I hide it deep in these songs. I learned to keep my mouth closed cause don't nobody know what's wrong.

Got me addicted to love, and then you left around the same time. Sorry I can't make time, been living on space time. I heard through the grapevine she told you we FaceTimed. That shit got a block, tell that bitch to kick rocks, yea yea

And I don't want no more love, I feel its poison. Late at night I can't sleep 'cause I hear voices. Telling me I'm too deep, quit tryna force it, yea yea yea. Got too much stuck on my chest, can't get it off of me. I put my demons to rest but they been stalking me. Lord knows I tried my best, I gave it all of me, yea yea yea