Lost Out of Love

Chapter 10

"Solana, where have you been?!" I was pursing my lips, while my manager's scolding at me.

"I just bought a coffee." I lied, looking away.

"Pwede namang kay Crizza ka na lang magpabili! More than 30 minutes kang nawala! Kanina ka pa namin hinahanap, you didn't even bring your phone!" She was holding her temples, worried that she may lose her temper, I looked away.

"S-sorry, I won't do that again." I bit my lower lip, feeling embarassed.

"Dapat lang!" My manager walked away, then I took a deep sigh. Hindi na dapat ako sumama sa kaniya. Lumapit sa'kin ang personal assistant ko at pinunasan 'yung mga pawis sa noo ko, she was looking worried at me.

"I'm okay, Crizza. Don't worry about me." I gave her a weak smile.

Lumapit din sa'kin 'yung make up artist para i-retouch ako. But unlike earlier, she's not that talkative anymore. Maybe avoiding me, thinking that I may not be in my mood right now. I just smiled at her after finishing my retouch.

Gladly, my photoshoot's done after an hour. The atmosphere a while ago was heavy, and I know it's because of me. But somehow, I felt the others are trying to lighten up everyone's mood. I hope I did a good job at the shoot today.

I went to mami Rej and apologized again, "It's okay, just don't do it again. Magpapaalam ka next time." She gave me a reassuring smile, and I nodded.

I also went to the other staffs, and especially to the photographer to also apologize.

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Binagsak ko 'yung sarili ko sa kama, habang nakatitig sa kisame. It was an unpleasant day for me, I got scolded by my manager and felt embarassed in front of the others. I regretted being with him, I shouldn't have agreed to come with him, in the first place.

Kung alam ko lang na 'ganon pala ang mangyayari, sana hindi na lang ako sumama. Napahamak pa tuloy ako. I've never done that before, it was my first time breaking my manager's rules.

Natigil ang pagda-drama ko nang maalala 'yung nangyari sa coffee shop kanina. Just thinking of it makes my flutter. Napahawak ako sa dibdib ko, "Heart, why are you like that?" Talking to myself.

Axel's weird, and my heart is weird too! Why is that?

Napasabunot ako sa sarili ko dahil sa mga naiisip ko. I didn't answer him a while ago, 'cause I don't know what to say. I felt like my lips doesn't want to say anything, but my heart just wanted to explode. This is a different kind of feeling, parang mas kinabahan pa ako 'don kaysa sa nabunot ang index card ko sa recitation.

Hinatid niya lang ako sa labas ng studio and bid his good bye without even looking at me. He just confessed, and yet he can't even look at me? Is he playing with me? Wait, he did not really confessed! Am I assuming things? Ugh!

Days have come, Ashley came over para sabay kaming mag-enroll through online. We had lunch together, and went inside my room para doon na lang kami tatambay.