I Hate Loving You - Shane Walsh x Reader (The Walking Dead FanFiction)

Chapter Fourteen- Apologies

(This chapter does mention ED, if that is a trigger it is marked with ** please seek medical attention if you, yourself is dealing with this issue, Stay safe!)

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We buried Sophia. Carol didn't go. She stopped thinking of the Sophia, I shot, as her little girl. Daryl was pissed, it wasn't very hard to tell. I kept my head down and just kept busy. Burning bodies. I brought myself to Maggie, my head lowered. I felt bad. Really bad.

"Maggie, I- could you talk for a second?" I kept my head low, barely looking up. Maggie's eyes squinted at me and I looked down at me.

"Fine. What's wrong?" Maggie tapped her foot and I looked up shocked.

"I- I'm sorry. What I did at the barn wasn't okay, I was angry. I took it out on the wrong thing. It's not an excuse but- look, what I did was wrong. I'm- I'm sorry." I tried to hold eye contact but, I faltered and dropped my eyes.

"I know." Maggie looked at me without hatred. Like she actually forgave me. "You messed up, you apologized."

"Are you serious? You- thank you Maggie." I smiled. I couldn't help but, hug Maggie. She laughed and hugged back. "Thank you. I mean it."

"Of course. Now go on, my Daddy dosen't like you or Shane right now so, if I were you I'd lay low." Maggie patted my back and I let go. I nodded and left the house at the same time Glenn was going in. I took about to steps out of the house before hearing yelling inside. I went back in and ran around before seeing Maggie and Glenn by Beth in the kitchen.

"What happened?" I bent down and Maggie tried to lift her up. Glenn helped while I lead them to the spare room. "I'll go find help."

"No! Hershel isn't very keen on you right now. Go get Rick or Shane. I'll find Hershel." Glenn looked at me and I nodded. We both went outside. He came up empty handed while I found both Rick and Shane. We all searched the property for Hershel but, nothing. All we found was an empty flask and boxed up clothes in his room.

"I'll bring him back." Rick said as the words rolled off his tongue. He left the room Lori, Shane, and I following.

"You're going after him? With everything going on?" I looked at Rick and he rubbed his temples.

"She's right. This is not the time to head off, not today. You don't always have to-" Lori started and Rick stopped her.

"I'm not arguing. That's the least I can do for Hershel after we-" Rick was talking and Shane interrupted him.

"After we what?" Shane scoffed and took my hand leading me out of there. I shrugged at Lori and followed Shane. We walked out of the house and towards the barn to help burn bodies. The sun was sitting on top of the trees, so we had to do it now. We got in the truck after filling it with bodies and drove down behind the Barn. T-dog was down there setting up a wood pile for the walkers. We got all the walkers ready.

"How many times are we going to do this?" T-dog sighed and wiped his forehead. I shook my head and nodded.

"Ready?" I grabbed the Stick snd T-dog lit it. Shane connected it with mine, lighting his too. We tossed it into the pile and shrugged.

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Dinner that night was pretty calm. Until we noticed Lori was missing as well as Rick, Hershel, and Glenn still gone. I was the first out of my seat. I sighed and walked around camp looking for her. She was just gone. Carl was frantic. Carol came back from Daryl's camp with some bad news.

"She asked Daryl to go to town. Must've gone herself." Carol explained causing Carl to whisper and go back inside.

"Did you know about this?" I looked at Dale and he shrugged.