Chasing Ring (Architect Series #2) (COMPLETED)

Chapter 17

The next day, I tried to keep it by myself. I didn't let anyone knows about my condition. I also asked a favor to JB not to tell anyone what is really happened to me.

As long as I can keep myself strong and fierce I will keep everything in a jar. I don't want anyone to pity me and spend too much time thinking about what they should do to ease my pain. Up until now, I am still disgusted with those mother fuckers.

Aside from that, I am still scared. The feeling of being afraid to give by the crowded places sent me uneasiness. It's traumatic. I am also scared of what they can do to Mommy. Nakakatakot isipin na kahit nasa likod na sila ng selda ay pwedeng pwede pa rin nila kaming balikan.

Hindi ko sila kilala. Wala akong naalalang may nagawan ako ng masama o kahit ni isang tao na may atraso ako.. except kay Yrikka. Hindi naman siya siguro aabot sa point na papatay siya para lang sa pagmamahal 'di ba? Isa pa they are back together. Wala nang dahilan para saktan niya pa ako.

"Kamusta ang kalagayan ni Mommy, Ann?" tanong ni Seth sa tawag.

"She's getting better every day, Seth."

"Good to hear that. Take care of her, okay? Wala kami ni Dad diyan at tanging ikaw lang ang makakapag-alaga sa kanya."

Tumingala ako para pigilan ang luhang gustong bumagsak sa aking pisngi.

"Y-yes... of course. I'll take care of Mom..."

"Okay ka lang ba? Bakit feeling ko umiiyak ka?" Nag-alala niyang tanong nang mahimigan ang pag-iyak sa boses ko.

I sighed before answering him.

"Oo naman. Napiyok na lang ako."

Pilit kong binubuo ang tinig ko habang ang mga luha sa pisngi ko ay nag-uunahan sa pagtulo. I may be physically strong but deep inside, I'm drowning with my own thoughts and experiences.

No matter how I tried to hide my emotions, my tears suddenly fell if someone asked me about how I feel.

"Nay, ako na lang po ang magdadala niyan sa kwarto ni Mommy," kinuha ko ang tray ng pagkain kay Nay Pilla para ako na ang maghahatid ng pagkain kay Mommy.

She's getting better pero hindi ako mapapanatag hangga't hindi bumabalik ang dati niyang lakas. Dati na siyang may sakit sa puso pero ngayon lang muli siya inatake.

I admire how strong she can be. Isipin mo may sakit ka na sa puso pero patuloy ka pa ring sinasaktan ng taong mahal mo.

"Hey," I greeted her and planted a soft kiss on her forehead. She reads a novel when I entered her room.
She put down her book and gave me her full attention.

"May masama ba sa'yo?"

She asked as I sat down beside her.

"Ha?"

"Mommy mo ako. Alam ko ang lahat sa'yo. Kabisado ko ang pagkatao mo," she replied. "I know when you are hurting and when you are not, Etyl Ann."

"M-Mommy..."

"It's not just about your breakup, right? There's something more. "

I don't know but her words triggered me. I hugged her and I cried like a baby on her chest... I wanted to tell her the truth... gusto kong mag sumbong sa kanya... but, I refused because I know it wouldn't help her... hindi lang ako ang may pinagdadaanan ngayon. Siya rin.

"Hush now, Sweetie." She caressed my back and pressed her lips on my forehead.

"M-Mommy. Mommy, I c-can't tell you... I'm sorry, Mommy..." umiiling kong sinabi at hinigpitan pa ang pagyakap sa kanya. I am okay with this. Me in her arms, I am safe.