selfish | salia

Chapter 18

Hi! I know some of you guys only read this story (totally okay) but I just wanted to let y'all know I haven't been feeling the best recently. Luckily I was smart and pre wrote a lot of these chapters, but I'm trying to get back on track!! Thanks for being so patient and lovely!

All I have to say is...I am very, very sorry...

The last forty eight hours had been some of the most eventful so far. It had started with JJ's diss track on Ethan, Earthquake, I believe it was called. 

Then Harry's diss track had dropped on JJ, and, well, that's when things really went wrong. 

Through Simon, I had learnt that JJ had left all of the Sidemen group chats, and he had stopped answering text messages. Even to Simon, and I had seen first hand how torn up he was over it. 

JJ's reaction video to Harry had warnings of another diss track directed towards Harry, which only meant that someone was going to get hurt - my best bet was Sophie. I had already warned Simon about this, but he was so focused on his video I wasn't even sure that he was taking any of this in. 

But it didn't even stop there - both Simon and Vik's diss tracks had been dropped on Deji - and although I had only listened to Simon's because he had asked me to, I had to admit that not only was it catchy, he was quite good at rapping. 

It was now nearing eleven at night, and I was already exhausted from trying to talk to everyone all day. Eloise was nearly at breaking point trying to fix what she had essentially helped to break, Freya was visiting Sophie and then asking me for advice, I was trying to comfort Simon about JJ - it was all a big mess. 

"Simon?" I spoke, the first time in nearly an hour. 

"Yeah?"

"I'm going to head up to bed, I'm exhausted," I told him, walking over to hug him from behind as he was sat at his desk, still on his computer. 

"Alright. I'll see you in the morning, love you."

"Try not to cause anymore drama overnight," I joked. 

"I don't think anything worse could happen overnight," He joked back. Looking back on that, he could not have been more wrong. If only we knew the worst was yet to come. 

The next morning, I was actually awoken to the sound of my phone buzzing repeatedly. It was Freya, which was odd because she should've just come into my room. 

"Freya? Why are you calling?" I asked groggily, still only just waking up. 

"Tell your idiotic boyfriend to watch out because I swear I am going to strangle him," She spoke, and she sounded genuinely angry. 

"What? What has he done? Do you want to explain what's going on? I've only just woken up," I explained, stifling a yawn. Clearly, I had missed a lot. 

"You mean you haven't seen anything? Go and check out JJ and Simon's channels, then maybe you can help with the strangulation," She spoke, before hanging up. 

It sounded like I had missed a lot, so I reached over for my remote, typing up JJ's channel into YouTube. He had realised a diss track, presumably on Harry. It was called Little Boy and was around three minutes long. 

I clicked on it, and throughout the whole track my mouth hung open. I had only known JJ for a couple of months, but the JJ on my screen right now was not the JJ I had gotten to know. No, this JJ was spiteful, and cruel. He had been deliberately mean to Harry and Sophie.