Everything Happens for a Reason

Part 13.

          We didn't text that long that night. My dad seemed to like him, so I told Shane that he liked him. Shane stopped texting me after awhile so I just went to bed cause I thought that maybe he fell asleep.

     I couldn't sleep at all. I kept tossing and turning and finally I just gave up and got out of bed. When I checked my phone it was 6 o'clock in the morning. I decided to just stay up.

      Shane hasn't texted me back. I'm starting to get a little scared why he hasn't. I text him good morning to see if he would text me back, but still nothing.

     I text Korey and ask her what she is doing to pass time. We start talking about what happened yesterday and how Shane hasn't talked to me since then. When me and her are talking I finally get a text back from Shane.

     "Hey. I'm sorry but we have to break up. I can't come between family. I'm sorry"

     "Your not coming between us."

     " I'm sorry I just can't."

      " Why didn't you do this yesterday you could have done it in person but you waited until the next day to break up with me."

      "Cause I didn't think about doing it until last night, and I was up all night thinking about it."

       " whatever. I got to go I can't do this right now."

      " whatever"

        I felt like crying I just felt like breaking down. But I knew that I had to be strong. That day it was very hard to not cry. Everyone kept asking me if I was okay cause they could tell that something was wrong with me. I didn't really want to talk to anyone that day. I didn't want to tell anyone that he broke up with me. When they asked me it took everything I had to tell them without breaking down. I couldn't eat anything for a couple of days with all of the stress.

      A couple of days went by with out talking to Shane. Every day that we didn't talk the easier it was for me to get over him. I decided that I need to move on that he wasn't ever gong to talk to me again. Or ever come back and I needed someone better than that, and I knew that I had to get over him some how. I decided to start talking to other guys. Try and get over him.

      I started talking to a guy that goes to my school and in the same grade as me. We have dated before when we were in elementary school, but we decided to stay friends. We have been talking for awhile now and then we decided that maybe we should go on a date, so he takes me to see a movie and that same night he asked me out. We dated for awhile, and I broke up with him, cause he wouldn't tell any of friends that we were dating cause he was scared of what they might think.

      After that I decided that maybe it is best if I stay single for awhile. I hanged out with my friends and my cousins, and I can feel myself getting over Shane, and instead of being happy about it I'm kinda sad. I don't know why I'm sad if I'm getting over him, but I don't think that I want to let him go. Not right now anyways.

      I tell Korey about how I'm not ready to let Shane go and how I think I still love him. She doesn't really have much advice for me, but she does help me on some of the things. Luckily I can go to my one of my closest friends Lea.

     Lea and I have been friends every since we were little. We tell eachother everything and we are always there for one another and we have our fights but what friends don't.

     I ask her for advice on everything and she helps me a lot. She tells me that if I want to be with him that I need to fight. Fight for what I want, cause if I don't fight that the person that I love won't see that I actually have feelings for him. Which he should.  I loved him more than anything in the world. I take her advice and decided to fight. Fight for what I want, and that is him.

      I decided to wait awhile, cause I don't want to just go running back to him. Not after the last time. So I decided to wait until the beginning of the month which was only a couple of days away. That's long enough to figure out what Im going to say.