Our Moments

chapter 51

Harry's Pov

I feel like I'm not me anymore . I promised myself I wouldn't loose control and I did. Out of all people , I had to loose it with her. It feels like I've been stabbed in the heart multiple times . the pain I've caused her is unbearable. She's more than my girlfriend , she's my love , my reason for living , and soon to be wife. I can't believe that I lost it , days right before the proposal. She's the only ones who's seen me at my worst . I hate seeing her upset , I hate it. That's all I try avoiding we were doing so well and I fucked up. Sighing , I looked at the beauty below me . Her hair was resting on her shoulders , her pink lips were in a pout. Her nose was crinkled , and I felt her hands were starting to sweat.

Her body was shaking , and I could feel her heart beat increase. " No , no don't leave me ", she mumbled in her sleep . I felt the pang in my chest , knowing shes having a nightmare. Squeezing her eyes closed , I ran my fingers through her hair. Its nearly 12 a.m and I can't sleep , all these thoughts are surrounding me . Not only did I end up hurting her , but Itzel and Zayn think I hit her.

I never expected that from them , but they have every right to assume that .By the look of Valeria's bruises it looks a lot like punches. But I could never ever dream of hurting her.

I can't get out of my head , she continuously tells me she's okay but the pain in her voice is evident. I hate it so much , I hate myself . I have only caused her pain . she claims otherwise , but I know that if we broke up I wouldn't be able to live with myself. I need her , she's my heart and as long as she's with me it pumps . I love her too much to let her go.

I gently pressed my lips to her forehead , as I carefully got out of the bed . I went over to the door , closing it slowly.

The hallway was quiet , everyone was asleep. I couldn't sleep , and I knew I wouldn't be able to. I made my way downstairs , turning the Christmas tree was right there. The twinkling lights and ornaments red and green. Presents were piled under it , remembering. I haven't wrapped Valeria's present. I hid it behind the couch , going behind it . The little box was still there. Smiling , I grabbed it , and grabbed the wrapping paper that was on the side . I opened the blue box , it was a ring . No , it isn't her engagement ring but its a silver grown , with little tiny red stones in each point . The stones represented her birth month color , I'm sure shell love it. Closing it , I took the wrapping paper and began to wrap it.

The fucking paper wouldn't cooperate as I tried taping the sides . It wasnt working , fucking wrapping paper. I'll just give it to her as it is.

I heard chuckling behind me , hoping it wasn't Valeria . I turned , seeing Zayn and Itzel . I really didn't want to speak to them , after everything they still accused me of hurting Valeria and threatning her.

" Here I'll help you ", Itzel offered giving me a small smile taking the little box away from my hand. She wrapped it , and I felt my face flush in embarrassment .

" Here ", she handed me the box as I nodded. The tension in the room was thick that you could cut it with a knife. I didn't want to be in here , knowing that my best friends decided to go against me.

" I'm going to get going ", I mumbled , walking right past them I felt a hand on my shoulder.

" Mate , we need to talk ", Zayn whispered , I turned . Itzel nodded offering me to sit again , I sighed dragging my feet along the carpet floor . Plopping on the couch.

" I'm really Sorry ", Itzel began fiddling with her hands.

I shrugged it off , " It really doesn't matter ", I retorted back. Itzels eyes softened , as Zayn stiffend.