Reigning of Ice Queen ( Completed)

Kabanata 18

Kabanata 18

Elisha's POV

Pain scattered on my system.

I will never forget how he looked at me with disgust.

My eyes are still swelling because I cried a lot when I enter my room. My hair is messy 'cause I can't stop ruining it like I diverted my anger on my hair.

I locked the door so no one can enter. I don't want to see anyone for now.

But....

I'm waiting for someone to look for me but sadly no one came.

I was deeply hurt. Gladly no one cares.

I was expecting for him to make me feel better but he went at North Palem to take care of Ellison instead of me! How ironic, last time I check he's still mine, remember when he follows me on the mortal world? And now he didn't even look just a glimpse of me!?

My heart was aching like it was being stabbed in a million times. Stabbed in a million times leaving an endless pain.

I wonder how Ellison feels right now that she got all the attention she wanted. Does it make her happy? Or is it still not enough? She's so selfish!

She was warm outside but a growing evil inside.

Are you really my sister? But why I can't feel it?

I crumpled my blanket in frustration.

I didn't even bother to open the lights because I was to scared to fall again.

It was so dark. Even the light came from the moon isn't enough. All I could hear is the sound of my deep breath. I cried continuously until there's no tears coming from my eyes.

"Ano? Nagising ka na ba sa kahibangan mo? Noon pa man wala ka na talagang kwenta at lalo mo pang pinatunayan ngayon! Sana pala ay hindi na kita hinayaang tumapak sa pwestong 'yan! Lumalaki lang ang ulo mo! Hindi ka naman magaleng! Wala ka pang ipagmamalaki kaya matuto kang makisama! Napakasama mo! Wala kang kwenta!"

Kahibangan?

Ako ba talaga ang dapat magising sa kahibangan? Bakit ako? Sa loob ng mahigit isang daang taon na wala sila sa buhay ko tapos babalik sila ng gano'n na lang! Tapos manggugulo pa sila? Nananahimik na ako dito!

Noon? Pa'no naman n'ya 'yon nasabi? Ni wala ngang alaala na pumapasok sa isip ko tuwing nakikita ko sila? Tanga ba sila? Kung totoong kapatid ko 'yang babae na 'yan at kamag-anak kita, bakit mo naman ako sasabihan ng ganyang kasasakit na salita. Is she the only one matters?

I forced myself to shed my tears again even I don't have much energy to move.

Am I not really deserving to be the queen? Am I just the only option that's why I'm chosen? Am I just a burden?

Maybe.

Kahit pigilan ko ang sarili ko na alalahanin ang mga pangyayari hindi ko kaya. Paulit-ulit na bumabalik sa isipan ko na para bang sinasampal ulit ako ng katotohanan na wala akong kwenta. Hindi ako karapat-dapat. Sana pala'y hindi ko na lang s'ya pinapasok. Dumagdag lamang s'ya sa isipin ko.

Kahit kailan hindi ko pa naranasang piliin at hanggang ngayon.

Nanliliit pa rin ako sa sarili ko dahil sa mga salitang sa kanya mismo nanggaling. Si Ellison lang ang pinakikinggan nila. Tila bulag at bingi ang lahat pagdating sa mga paliwanag ko. Walang gustong umintindi. Mas lalo pa akong nasasaktan dahil nakikita ko sa mukha n'ya ang imahe ng aking ina. Totoong magkamukha sila pero......pakiramdam ko si ina ang nagsasalita sa harap ko kaya hindi ako makalaban. Ni hindi ko nga gustong magagalusan ang ina ko tapos lalabanan ko pa s'ya?