I'm Just His P.A.

IJHPA: 42

Warning: some scene contains mention of death and harassment.

It has been an exhausting day because of work or maybe the reason behind why I feel so empty right now is the man who has been bugging me for a while.

I sighed heavily while staring at the ceiling of my room—thinking of what my life would have been if I did not happen to know the truth? Kung hindi ko nalaman na magkapatid kami, may relasiyon pa rin kaya kami? Kasal na kaya kami o 'di kaya’y may nabuo nang pamilya?

Despite every 'what ifs' that I have in mind, I am still grateful that we separated before. I think the only 'what if' that matters is 'what if we did not break up? Would we be as happy as we are right now?'

I was interrupted from reflecting about my past when my phone suddenly rang, it's Clay. Napairap na lang ako dahil alam ko na ang dahilan kung bakit niya ako tinatawagan.

"What?" I coldly said.

[Aw, sungit, sakit naman,] pagdadrama niya.

From the first conversation that we had recently ever since our break up, I noticed that he improved a lot in speaking Filipino language.

"I'm busy," I said in my most uninterested voice.

It is true that I am busy right now, my original plan was to review the case that I am currently working on. It is a little tricky since the prosecution counsel provided believable evidences to prove my client guilty. The promulgation of sentence from the court will be announced later and I cannot help but to feel nervous.

[I’m sorry for bothering you,] he said in a lower register. [Is it possible if—]

"Clay, I don’t want to be rude, but I really have to work right now," I said, cutting him off.

[You're working on a case at three in the morning?] he asked. It got me a little confused because he sounded worried and amused at the same time.

"Yeah," I simply answered.

[Okay, I guess I'll see you when I see you then.]

I was the first one to end the call without saying anything.

Aaminin ko, masiyadong naging malamig ang ginawa kong pagtrato sa kaniya simula noong magkita kaming muli. Hindi ko alam kung galit pa rin ako sa kaniya dahil ba sa nangyari sa amin noon o baka naman natatakot lang ako na baka maulit pa 'yon?

After cleansing my mind, I forced myself to fall asleep so that I would be prepared for whatever the ruling would be. If my client is found guilty of the charges against him then, it would be the first case that I failed to win.

Kakarampot lamang ang oras ng tinulog ko dahil kailangan ko na kaagad mag-ayos para sa pagpasok. Kamalas malasan namang nasiraan pa 'tong jeep na sinasakyan ko kaya't ito, kailangan ko pa tuloy lumipat ng masasakyan.

Hindi naman ako mapakali dahil halos lahat ng dumadaang jeep ay puno na, ilang minuto na lang at magsisimula na ang paghuhukom.

Nawala ang pagkakunot ng aking noo nang may humintong itim na BMW sa harapan ko. Nag-rolyo pababa ang bintana nito at sumabulong naman ang nakangising mukha ni Clay. Pinagtaasan ko siya ng kilay kaya’t natawa siya nang mahina.

"Care for a ride?" he asked without taking that annoying smirk off of his face.

I sighed with the thought of me—being in the same car with him again. I looked at my watch only to know that I only have twenty minutes left before the promulgation starts.

I cleared my voice. "Well, 'desperate times calls for desperate measures'," I whispered to myself. "May I?" I asked politely.

He did not respond. Instead, he got out of his car just to open the door for me. "Wish granted," he said before closing the door after me.