Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Fourteen

Sun

I didn’t sleep directly as I am thinking about Zack’s word. Namalayan ko nalang na ala una na ako nakatulog. It’s been a while since the last time I sleep late.

My head is still throbbing so much as I tried to open my eyes because I felt like my room is consumed with a lot of sunrays. When I slowly open my eyes, it directly darted to someone who’s sitting in the chair just beside the mini vanity table.

“What the fuck are you doing here!?”

I shouted at Zack and immediately get off from the bed to throw him the pillow. It’s exaggerated but hell! Kanina pa ba siya nandito?

“Bakit ka nandito?” Tanong ko ulit sa kanya.

“You said last night we’ll talk in the morning. That’s why I’m here,” he answered while he’s still leaning on the sofa inside my bedroom.

“Why can’t you just wait for me to wake up?”

“What I am doing is waiting,” he paused. “I’ve been waiting kaya ako nandito.” Patuloy niya pa.

“Why are you here then? Pwede ka naman sa labas maghintay!” Sigaw ko ulit sa kanya.

“Can you tone down your voice, lady? I won’t wait for you outside baka mamaya hindi mo naman gustong pag-usapan ito.”

He stood up and walk towards me.

“Don’t come near me,” malamig ngunit maawtoridad kong sabi pero hindi siya nito natinag.

“Why? Are you afraid you’ll fall for me harder than it usually is, Zen?” Tanong niya na may mapaglarong ngisi.

He continued walking hanggang nasa harapan ko na siya. We’re now inches away from each other. When I look into his eyes para akong matutupok no’n kaya nag-iwas agad ako ng tingin. Pero bago ako makaiwas agad niyang sinapo ang aking pisngi at pinagtitigan ang aking mga mata nang mabuti.

The way he looks at me, it feels like he’s examining me through watching me this closely.

Hindi ko nakayanan ang kanyang presensya habang nakahawak siya sa aking pisngi kaya diretso akong napaupo sa kama at naiwan ang kanyang kamay sa ere.

“We can talk without you holding my face,” kabadong sabi ko pero hindi naman ata iyon nahalata.

“Why? Are you bothered by my presence?” He smirked. Fuck! Ano ba pinagsasabi nito?

“Of course not,” I glared at him.

“So what is it that you’re trying to say?” Tanong ko agad habang nakataas ang kilay.

“I said, I like you,” he said impatiently. Inilingan ko na lang siya.

“I think I am not obliged to like you too, right?”

I raised my brow hoping that he would be intimidated, but he is not. I can feel that it motivates him more.

“You aren’t obliged since I know that you already are falling for me,” he confidently declared.

“Lakas naman ng hangin dito,” I murmured habang pinaypayan ko ang aking sarili.

Why is he that confident? Is that because of his status? Pero makapal ang mukha niya sa part na parang siguradong sigurado siya sa kanyang sinabi. Well, totoo nga naman. Ayaw ko lang aminin sa kanya.

“Pwede ka nang lumabas, tapos ka nang magsalita,” usal ko habang iniiwas ko pa rin ang aking paningin.

“And who says I’m done talking?” tunog nagrereklamo siya.