Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Thirty-Two

Plead

Woke up and the pain and soreness I felt made me immobile. I'm unable to move! Kaya mas pinili kong ibuka ang aking mga mata. Only to see Zack looking at me closely.

"Morning..." he greeted in a hoarse voice. His hair was disheveled making him looked more hot.

"M-Morning," I responded. Medyo nahiya pa ako.

Maraming bagay ang pumasok sa isip ko, isa na roon ang kahihiyan ko ngayon. I dumped him everytime he started making his move and last night, we bed each other.

We bed each other like we both really wanted. Nang maalala ko lahat ng sinabi niya habang nag-iisa ang aming mga katawan, hindi ko maiwasan na mapangiti. He made love with me and showered me with words of assurance. At dumako ang aking pag-iisip na huling sinabi niya.

"Shit!" I covered my mouth as I remembered his last words.

Papakasalan kita.

"Fuck!" I exclaimed while looking straight at nowhere.

"Love...what happened?" Tanong niya at inilingan ko lang siya.

"Eat your lunch."

I was supposed to ignore his words but then a realization dropped on me when he said lunch.

"What? It's lunch time already?!" I shouted while asking. I'm just shocked.

"It's three in the afternoon," sabi niya sabay higa tabi sa akin.

"Bakit hindi mo ako ginising?!"

"I tried to wake you up but you didn't open your eyes. Instead, you just keep on groaning," he paused. "And I assumed you were drained last night, and it was my fault so I let you sleep for more hours." He playfully give me a smile at his statement.

Hindi ako sumagot at tumango na lamang. I saw him stood up from the bed at kinuha niya iyong tray na may laman na pagkain sa bedside table at dinala iyon sa harap ko.

"Let me feed you, love. Babawi ako sa 'yo."

When I looked at him, I saw determination and at the same time sadness on his eyes. Baka iniisip niya na wala na talaga siyang pag-asa sa akin. That's so wrong for him to conclude. Marupok na kung marupok...but I know that I would come back to him. I could never love someone else like the way I loved him. Kasi kung kaya ko man, matagal ko na sana nagawa.

He started spooning the rice, together with the bacon and all those foods in it. He fed me hanggang sa malapit na iyong maubos. We keep quiet while he was feeding me. Okay lang din naman sa akin. Everytime he stares at me para akong malulusaw. He is just so hard to resist.

"Say ah." He commanded.

Sumimangot ako dahil para akong bumalik pagkabata. But I obediently followed him and opened my mouth. He moved his hands preparing the spoon at nang mapakain niya ako. But then, shock enveloped on me that instead of the spoon, his lips claimed my mouth and kiss every corner of it.

I can't help but to whimper in between our kisses.

Seconds later he is already hovering on me. Sandali lamang nang malapat ang kanya sa akin pero agad nagbabaga ang aking katawan.

Anticipating his touch all over my body, especially the ones in between my thighs.
At dahil hindi naman kami nagdamit kagabi, we settled on the thick comforter kaya't wala na siyang kailangan hubarin at iyong comforter lamang ang kanyang kakalasin na nakapulupot sa katawan ko.

He kissed my lips and left it while I'm in the verge of kissing him back forcefully.

"Akin!" He claimed my mouth again when he was done saying it.