Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Twenty-One

Scared

Everything went so fast. We celebrated the New Year together with Zack at sa lahat ng oras na ’yon ay labis ang saya na aking nadarama. I thanked him personally for the shoes and watches he sent me and for that exact time I thanked him, I managed to give him my presents. It’s a simple gold necklace with his name carved on it.

I can say that my life has been so good these past days. Tapos na ang holidays at balik skwela na naman kaming lahat.

It’s Monday morning when we all arrived in the school’s parking lot. It’s a coincidence kasi halos sabay lang talaga kaming sampu na dumating doon. We all greeted each other a good morning at nagpatuloy na sa paglalakad patungo sa room namin.

Apparently, we have the same room kasi batch lang naman kaming sampu. Aside from we’re batchmates, we are also classmates.

As usual, students will look at us with admiration in their eyes. Hindi ko alam bakit gano’n but then I heard someone mumbling in the hallway.

They are always like this. Nahihiya ako but I guess I’ll get used to it.
It’s the first day after the long holidays and it’s the second sem of the year since matatapos ng April ang school year namin. For the first day, we’ve been through a lot of solvings every subject. Parang sasabog utak ko dahil sa dami ng gagawin. But then, we can’t do anything. This is what we wanted to be, kaya dapat lamang na tiisin namin ang hirap.

Lunch break and I saw my phone ringing. Agad napawi ang aking pagod dahil lamang sa tawag niya. After the New Year, kinabukasan umuwi siya kaagad at nangakong babalik ngayong weekend. I don't like his idea because it is impractical. Pero wala akong magawa kasi pera niya naman ibabayad niya at hindi sa akin.

“Love?”

I came back to my senses as I heard him called me by our endearment. Umiikot lamang sa 'love' or 'mahal' ang aming tawagan, sa kadahilanan na pareha lang naman ang ibig sabihin nito.

“Sorry, may naisip lang ako. I didn’t know I answered the phone already,” I responded to him.

“Love, don’t worry about your school works. Huwag masyado pa-stress, if you need help I’m just here.”

Hind niya alam hindi naman school works nasa isip ko.

“I was thinking about you.” I stated.

I heard him cursed repeatedly. Gano’n na rin kabigat ang kanyang bawat paghinga. He is too crazy for this. Bakas sa tinig niya na kinikilig siya.

“You’re driving me crazy, Zen.”

“I’m falling in love again…”

Such a kid. At least we’re even now? Hindi puwede kung ako lang ang sobrang saya at sobrang nababaliw sa kanya. I have to get even.

Time’s too fast when you’re happy. As I continued talking to him, I heard the school’s bell rang. I told him that I need to end the call because it’s classes hours already.

“I love you Zen, take care.” He uttered and I responded my I love you for him.

The day went by and all I can say is… it’s tiring, but then I shouldn’t stop doing things na kailangan gawin na alam ko naman na makabubuti sa akin. I arrived home gamit ang sarili kong sasakyan at feeling ko tuloy napaka-independent ko kahit hindi naman talaga sa pagmaneho ng sasakyan ang basehan.