Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Thirty-Nine

Preparation

It is December 14 already and everything is all set. From the gowns, the reception after the wedding, foods, photographers, and invitations has been disseminated and anything that in need for the wedding are all set.

“Let’s go, Zen.” Tawag sa akin ni Ate Leigh at sinundan ko siya palabas sa bahay ni Zack.

They planned to never let me and Zack be together tonight. Tradisyon daw iyon, kaya taos-puso namin itong susundin.

Hindi man lang ako nakapagpaalam kay Zack dahil hinatak agad ako ni Ate Leigh. Sa isang hotel kami mamalagi pansamantala kasama si Ate Leigh at Ate Zia at ibang babaeng kaibigan ko. The same goes to Zack. I don’t know which hotel they’re going to stay for the meantime.

“Zen!”

Dinig kong tawag sa akin ni Zack na naka boxers pa dahil galing tulog. He’s so handsome with his bed hair. His eyes are still puffy, really wanted to sleep more but needed to get up. His body built that’s so mature now. With those muscles perfectly put at the right place.

His muscle on the arm got emphasized when he opened his arms widely to give me a tight hug. Nahugot ko ang aking hininga nang maramdaman ko na masyado na talagang mahigpit.

“Hey! Hindi makakahinga kapatid ko!” Dinig kong sigaw ni Leigh pero tumawa lamang si Zack.

“I’m sorry. I just giggled at the thought that you left me there without notice,” he said while pointing the second floor of his house where his room is located.

“Hinatak ako agad ni Ate eh, kaya hindi na ako nakapagpaalam,” paliwanag ko sa kanya at tumango lamang siya habang nakangiti.

“Sisiputin mo naman ako bukas, hindi ba?” He asked.

“Syempre, hindi! Ipaparanas ni Zen sa ’yo kung gaano kasakit ang maiwan!” Sabat ni Leigh sa likod na puno ng pait.

I don’t know but she’s so bitter these past few months.

Nawala ang aking palaisipan tungkol kay Leigh nang sandaling tingnan ko si Zack na may malulungkot na mata. Agad ako ginapangan ng kaba dahil sa nangyari. Maybe he was moved by what Leigh has said.

“Gagawin mo ’yon sa akin, Zen? You haven’t moved on about that yet?” Tanong niya na puno ng sakit at may namumulang mata. Looks like he’s going to cry.

Pansamantala akong natulala at namangha sa mukha niyang puno ng takot, sakit at pait.

“No, I’m not going to do that. And I already moved on from that. Huwag ka maniwala kay Ate. She’s just bitter, okay?” I told him and softly caressed his cheeks.

Agad niya namang hinawakan ang kamay ko na nasa pisngi niya at marahan niya itong hinaplos sa sariling pisngi niya at parang maginhawa siyang ginagawa iyon.

“I will never leave you, Zack. It will kill me. So don’t ever think na iiwan kita dahil iyon ang bagay na napakahirap gawin para sa akin." I said and then smiled after.

“Thank you, love... I swear I’ll never do what I did years ago. You can fully trust me now, love.” He said making me smile.