Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Thirty-Seven

Dinner

“Zack, I’m going back to Cebu…” I trailed off while looking intently at him. “Sasama ka? O rito ka na lang?” Tanong ko sa kanya pagkatapos kong bumangon.

“Nah, I think not…may aasikasuhin pa ako. But if you’ll gonna be there tomorrow or the next day, baka masamahan kita. Not just today,” he informed without looking back at me.

Ang sarap niya tanungin kung ano ang aasikasuhin niya pero hindi na ako nag-abala. Baka sa trabaho, modeling. I don’t wanna sound so possessive. Pero hindi ko maiwasan na manlumo. Gusto ko sana ngayon umuwi.

“Sumunod ka na lang kung gusto mo. Ngayon ako uuwi,” sabi ko sabay hakbang patungo sa banyo at naligo. Hindi ko na inantay ang sasabihin niya.

I just want to check my family lalo na ngayon. The news is taking the media so fast. My family is worried and I don’t want to assure them through calls. I want to see them.

I sensed his sudden change of mood. Parang ako lang kahapon, wala naman siyang kasalanan pero gano’n na lang ako kalamig sa kanya. At may aasikasuhin pa siya. Hindi ko naman maalis sa isip ko kung ano ang aasikasuhin niya at ayaw ko rin talagang magtanong. Nasa kanya na kung magsasabi siya o hindi.

Bumuntonghininga na lang ako at nagpatuloy sa pagligo. Nang matapos ako, lumabas ako sa banyo ng silid ko na naka-robe lang at may tuwalya sa aking buhok. Hindi ko pinansin si Zack na may makahulugang tingin sa akin. Dumiretso ako sa bedside table kung saan nakapatong ang cellphone ko. Marahan ko iyong binuksan at tinawagan ang sariling piloto ko.

“Ready my plane, uuwi ako sa Cebu.” Maawtoridad kong sabi sa kanya.

“Copy that, Zen.”

“Who are you talking to?” Galit na boses ni Zack ang aking narinig sa pagbaba ng aking telepono. Kumunot ang aking noo dahil sa tono ng pananalita niya.

“Does it matter?” I sarcastically asked and gave him my deadly glare.

“Of course, it does!” Galit na sagot niya sa akin.

“At may gana ka pang magalit?” Mariin kong tanong sa kanya. “I called my personal pilot! Okay ka na?” Sigaw ko sa kanya. I saw his puffy eyes while looking at me. The dark aura of him earlier turned soft right now.

“Sorry, I’m just so possessive…”

I walk across the bed where we are meters apart from each other and as soon as I reached in front of him I automatically pinched his cheeks making him blush so much.

“Nanggigigil ako sa ’yo!” I said.

“That hurts!” Reklamo niya pero patuloy pa rin ako sa pagpisil sa pisngi niya. Kalaunan tinigilan ko na rin siya.

“Stop it. You don’t like me when I am mad,” banta niya sa akin.

“Try me. Baka magustuhan ko…” hamon ko sa kanya.

I immediately felt the regrets in me. Because the moment I finished stating those words, I saw how his eyes shows a glint of desire to me. And as expected, I automatically knew what would happen. He kissed me with so much desire and I also answered his kisses with equal ferocity.

In the middle of him caressing my body, I stopped him midway. He looked at me wondering why I did that.

“Let’s resume this next time. I have a flight to catch,” rason ko. He twitched his lips as if he is’'t favor to what I said.

“It’s your plane. You can fly anytime and anywhere.” He said, trying to give me an idea but I strongly disagree.

I nod at him. “Yeah, it’s my plane and I can fly anytime and anywhere. The time will be at this hour or two, and that anywhere will be in Cebu,” I said responding unto what he said and I found him looking at me intently.