Loving Him Even In Sadness

Loving: Eighteen

Yours

When the call ended, I immediately went outside sprinting just so I could hurriedly see him. Wearing my pajamas and my furry slippers only, catching my way off to him.

As I opened the main door, I saw him standing in the stairs ahead of it, seriously looking at me. I’m still a bit shocked why he’s here. When he’s supposed to be on board right now. Imposible naman na ayaw niyang umalis dahil sa ’kin.

“Zack, why are you here? You’re supposed to be –”

“Shh… just hug me!” As he said that, I immediately went to him and hugged him!

“God! I miss you so much, Zen.” He uttered as he caress my head while hugging me.

My heart can’t just stop beating so fast as I felt his embrace that is full of longing. Matagal ko nang gusto na mayakap niya ako nang ganito. At ngayon, parang natupad na nga.

“Babalik ka ba sa airport? Do you somehow ditch your flight and booked another one?” I asked because I’m still worried by his stunt.

“Yeah, I did.” He said shortly as he wrapped his arms on my waist, tighter than earlier.

“Why did you do it?” Worry plastered on my voice as I asked him.

Ayaw ko rin mag assume na ako ang dahilan, pero in the other side, tinatanong ko ang aking sarili kung may iba pa ba siyang dahilan kung bakit siya bumalik.
My thoughts flew as he spoke in front of me.

“How can I leave, when you said earlier that you’d miss me? Huh? Tell me. How can I leave?” His eyes darted unto me, so do I to him.

Does he mean it? I mean, he came back just because I told him that I would miss him?

“I d-dont... understand you Zack,” I really don’t understand him.

Imposible kasi ang nasa isip ko.

“All I wanted you to do is to miss me, Zen. And now I guess it’s happening.” He said while he withdraw his arms on my waist and it flew to my cheeks. He caressed it as if it’s very fragile. I can see it through the way he touch it.

“Pero…”

I don’t have the chance to utter what I am going to say because he claimed my lips as if it’s his! He kissed me gently, feeling every corners of my lips. This is my first time and to know that it is with Zack… I can’t hardly believe it.

He reached for my hands and he placed it on his neck before he ran through his hand back to cheeks.
When it ended, it feels like I lost some air in me. Kaya dali-dali akong nag-iwas ng tingin at huminga nang malalim. It’s also a good reason para hindi ako makatingin kay Zack. Heck! That was my first and I didn’t know if tama ba ang ginawa ko.

“Not so fast, my Z. You are not looking away from me.” His words are full of finality.

Ayaw ko mang sundin, pero nahihibang na yata ako at sumunod sa kanyang gusto. Sinasabi sa sarili na, simula ngayon hindi na ako mag-iiwas nang tingin sa kanya.

“Zack, let’s go inside. It’s starting to get cold,” I said as I am trying to change the topic.

He obeyed. Nang nakapasok kami ay agad kong naalala ang nangyari kagabi. How dare he?

“Alam mo, galit ako sa ’yo.” Usal ko sa kanya. While his face is now wondering.

“Why?”

“I just told you I like you last night. Yet you left me in my room without a word!” I shouted.

“You did?” His eyes grew bigger as he asked me.