Remember Me, Mi Amore

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I suppressed a yawn after looking into the plants outside our house. I even blinked a couple of times, trying to see and knock my senses. Bags under my eyes are growing second by second because of how tired I am feeling! If bags under my eyes grow, I'm gonna sue. I'm suing this sucky day.

I had to wake up early. Literally early. Dad woke me up at five in the morning. I don't know what that was about so I decided to sleep back in. Not even a second passed when he came barging in and screaming for me to wake up! What a great way to start this day, right? Then when I got into a shower the water was very cold. I was shaking to death because of the coldness that I was feeling. I thought I was in Antarctica or the North pole when I was bathing in the water.

When I had my breakfast... well, I can't say anything much about it. I don't want to say anything. Paano— Feels weird talking in Filipino. My Dad left me eating alone. Alone! I can't believe that he did that to me. Maybe it was because he got annoyed at me? Could that be the reason why he suddenly left? Maybe. I mean, I was just asking about things. Like why are we here, what are we doing here. All that stuff. But he chose to ignore me and left me eating alone. Whatever, I guess. I didn't finish eating my breakfast anyway.

After all of that chaos, I'm here. In front of the house tapping my foot on the hard concrete floor. I was doing that so I wouldn't just lash out my anger unexpectedly. I sighed again. I looked at my watch when I saw that the time is passing slowly. My eyes grew big because of that! That much time had just gone passed? What the?! I've been standing here for a minute?! Just a minute?! I thought... It felt like an hour waiting for someone to pick me up.

I angrily bit my cheeks then stomp my foot angrily. Nakakainis naman! Bakit ba kasi I don't have luck for this day?! Ever since we came here to this country, there's nothing that I had than bad luck! Gosh, I want to go home now!

When I lived in our old house and where I really lived, I had so much there. I didn't have to wait in front of our house. I didn't have to eat alone. I didn't have to experience waking up early. That's what my life was. Was, past tense. Because of all things that we thought we will going to be forever, can't be forever.

Nakakainis naman 'yan! Parang I want to strangle the person that got me here. That had me experiencing all this thing to me. But I don't want her dead. I don't want to. I still love her... I think. Despite all the things that she did to me. Despite her letting me go away from her and letting me be alone. Kahit na, she didn't do anything to stop me or Dad from going away. Psh. This is all her fault.

"Sorry, Anne. Nasiraan ng gulong 'yung kotse," I looked at the person who talked. I thought it was someone else.

He was scratching his head while looking at me apologetically. That seems like a valid reason. Right? I sighed secretly and smiled at him. I whispered an 'it's okay' to him to which he responds an another sorry. I hopped inside the car while biting my cheeks. When I finally settled in, he immediately drove the car away from our house.

When the car was moving away, I looked back at it. I saw it slowly being little in my sight. Little by little as we go on our driving. Hanggang sa I didn't see any more of it. I fixed myself after staring at our house which was disappearing in my vision. Is this really my reality now?

I slumped my back at the car and looked outside the car's window. I'm so bored at the moment. Everyone or someone that is in my situation would get bored too. Or even maybe sad. Because who wouldn't right? You're in a place you only heard in stories. You are in a place where you don't really know what these things are or things were. You weren't familiar with the environment. You don't even have friends.