Remember Me, Mi Amore

36

I step aside from Tim. Because after him was the man who I've been wanting to talk to. I breathed a sigh silently as I tried to ready myself for the things that await us the most. When I had the courage and the strength, I tugged his shirt a little.

Because of that, his eyes move into mine and away from the plane that was already in the sky. When he noticed that it was me, he immediately moved his eyes away from me like I was some disease that he shouldn't look at. Like I was someone that shouldn't deserve his single glance.

I gulped in my throat that felt like a stone. "Forsythe, can we talk?" I asked him with so much difficulty because my heart that was near in my lungs are making my breathing hard.

I saw how he looked at his watch for just a second. I saw how his teeth became apart and how they glide at each other making his clench jaw.

"You can say no," I added to my question to him because it just hurts me to see his reaction to me like that. By the way, his jaw clenched and by the way, he looked at his wristwatch for a second. Like he doesn't have time for me anymore.

"Hindi naman ako busy. Okay lang," he said to me as he nodded his head.

I put out a smile on my lips even though I don't want to do that. But it is a must as I wanted to show him that I was grateful for just a little time that he will spend with me.

Before we fled the scene, we nodded our goodbyes to both Tim and Forsythia. They didn't say anything about the fact that we will both talk. Maybe we see this thing as something that is needed between us. That's probably the reason. Considering the way how things went down between us here at the airport too.

I never knew that when I looked at the place and set my foot in it, it could bring so many things to my heart. Especially the memories that make my heart being knife up in there and someone was holding it tightly like it wanted it to explode. I wondered how I could feel my heart being sliced up when I thought all of the emotional things that happened to me turned that thing into dust.

"Anne, 'yung pagmamaneho mo," Forsythe said to me who sat at the front of my car.

My mind flew off that I forgot my hands are behind a wheel. I muttered a little sorry underneath my breath because of my forgetfulness. What I heard was nothing from him.

The insides of my car were not big but it felt like that. It felt like there was an ocean that was separating us. It felt like there was a whole border between us that when I breathe, he can't hear it. The silence that was spread among us was holding my throat and wanting me to suffocate to my last breath. The border and the ocean were so loud between us that I can't hear what his thoughts are.

Luckily, I observed the surroundings that we are passing through that I know where the exact place we should talk to. I saw a cafe and a dimly lit bench. The cafe was the only choice we had of course. Don't want to talk outside the bench in front of everyone right? Yeah.

I parked my car outside and we both walked towards the inside. I and Forsythe didn't find any seats to sit on first even though there was a lot of vacancies, we first walked towards the counter to order our drinks. He ordered the usual, which was just black coffee and nothing more. Meanwhile, I just bought a strawberry cream shake. Yeah, even just food hurts me now.

When the person who was behind the desk said that they will serve it later, I know that we have to seat in front of each other. That's what we did. We sat at the table that was near the huge window. I bit my cheeks as I look at him. He was not looking at me. His eyes are all up on the outside.